so yeah, lots of happy things going on in my life right now, but it seems i now have a dire nead for a job.

mmm yes, i feel fantastic.

i feel like shit again, and i still dont have a reason.... that is all.

sigh...

I think I'm going to cry now... I just botched my first batch of cookies. This is like, a horribly bad thing, especially since I was making them as a visual aid for a speech I'm giving tomorrow.

if i post, will anyone care?

thats it, i give up.

you know, i was starting to think things might turn out okay.
you might think i would have learned by now that that is never going to happen for me.

hehehe, ive got a new layout! and nobody cares!

there are doorways i havn't opened,
and windows i've yet to look through.
going forward may not be the answer,
maybe i should go back....