hey ya'll, it's been a while. i miss you all so very much. come back home and see me as soon as possible (except for u lauren because i live with you but not for long!!!! *sob and sniffle ( Read more... )

talk about apathy kids...i just slept away the entire afternoon...

i find every day now that im contemplating the word 'apathetic' more and more ( Read more... )

sometimes theres so much more to life than these words ( Read more... )

so today was the last day of my poetry class. it was kinda sad, and kinda relieving. i didnt gain anybody's phone # to call and chat about poetry with, so that was a little disappointing. but, at least i dont have to meet a deadline every week. the challenge was great, but now i just want some time to write whatever i feel like. i only have two ( Read more... )

so now i have a job. babysitting weekdays, 3-6 pm, $8/hour. my perfect job. i dont care if the kids are brats. the hours and the pay is perfect for me. and hey, i only have to deal with them 3 hours a day. at least im not thier parents! that would suck. i dont think i ever want to have kids. what a pain in the ass, ya know? and if i do, i'll ( Read more... )

i had a dream this morning. i was on ecstacy (the drug, ya know)in my dream, and i was at my house and lauren had done it too but i forget who else was there, maybe jeff, and then i look outside my kitchen window and its 4 am (IN THE DREAM)and my grandparents are coming to spend the night. so i go in lauen's room and get alll these little brown ( Read more... )

sometimes i find myself on the verge of tears when i should be simply happy. what is wrong with me? why do i always feel that people are leaving me behind ( Read more... )

except for a pregnancy test and a morning after pill ( Read more... )

here i am, babysitting at my aunt mary's house. her two boys, david and daniel, are so cute. they fell fast asleep, quick like tired puppies. i cant figure out how to work thier tv. i guess thats a good thing. i hate watching tv. i feel so lazy and dirty when i do. yuck ( Read more... )