On this day in 1942

I fell asleep in an open grave

I dreamt of Life and dying fish

Of the love I'd known that never was

My mind was heavy floating their in space

Racing and spinning and twitching and dreaming

It hurt and I laughed

It dreamt and I died

I saw myself bleeding

Hemorrhaging below my heart

My soul was fading

It was losing it's shine

Yet my heart ( Read more... )

I have more friends than I thought.

Some of the people I didn't think thought as highly of my as the seem to have been calling to console me. Letting me know that they are there for me. It has felt so good to feel so loved.

While everyone at my uncle's viewing tonight cried and asked how someone could kill their-self like that, I saw with ( Read more... )

Yesterday afternoon my sister called me to let me know that my Uncle Keith had killed himself. 4th death in two months. 2nd suicide this year and the 6th total since February ( Read more... )

After I got out of jail and started home, I started writing down random mixed up details that I didn't want to forget. I thought they were funny and didn't want to forget them ( Read more... )

Last night I saw Gwar. Last night I was painted red. Last night was fucking awesome ( Read more... )

 I've got a little story to tell you all. It's a glorious story. It has me in it.
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This time it isn't as drastic as the last 28374562789345 moves. Only moving closer to work. About 45 minutes to an hour away from where Shylene and I are now.

Little house in Smyrna with a big back yard for Kale and his soon to be brother Duke. We move in on the 25th or 26th. Just as soon as we get paid and the house is ready. I like it, Shy likes ( Read more... )

Will someone tell me why my friend's page will not let me read past the first page? There isn't a "previous entries" button or anything like that. How can I fix it?

Also, it's my anniversary today. One official year with Shylene. :)

Today I received a message from someone I haven't spoken to in a long time. Years. She apologized for the way she acted and for not returning my call when I left her a message on her birthday. I can't say she broke my heart, though she almost did. She was one hug away from my heart when she pushed it away.

The message didn't stir up anything or any ( Read more... )

If you can see this and didn't get my myspace bulletin, my new number is 678.577.7212. I like phone calls. I even like phone calls from people I've never met or spoken to. I got one earlier from a lady looking for a guy named Matt. I talked to her for a couple minutes. She was sweet. Matt is her grandson. Her name was Gertrude. For serious. I ( Read more... )