don't know how to really start. i've been starting thoughts but not finishing them... a lot... a whole lot lately. ... hung out with matt yesterday. it was cool. really cool. we went bowling and he beat me horribly, but i had fun loosing so that's all that matters. when we were done I wanted to print our scores but we didn't. :( haha. I did get a ( Read more... )

six oclock in the morning. surprisingly enough, i feel awake. that'll all change as soon as i get in the door at work. lol. i just hope it goes by faster than last time. dad might let me take the car out to chesterton tonight. i'll prolly have to put gas in it though cuz i've been takin' it an awful lot. yeah, matt and i are either bowling or ( Read more... )

Just got home from Nana's. My birthday thingy was pretty cool. Got some money and a camera I've been wanting plus a c.d. set from DL. It was pretty cool. Not many of my cousins came tonight :-/ Oh well, I figured that would happen. They're always "busy" unless they can benefit in some way from coming out to see us. Oh well ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Matt!

Life has taken some turns here in the past couple weeks. Confusing and crazy but new and exciting. Matt and I have been hangin' out lately and I've realized that I really like hangin' with him. He's cool and I think he thinks I'm cool. And we get along really good even though he tricks me into thinking we have no money when we're in line to pay for ( Read more... )

Dreams ( Read more... )

Life's been crazy lately. A bit chaotic and a bit on the verge, but nonetheless, it's been real. Josh and I are seperated for good and both of us acknowledge that, Matt and I have been hangin' out and talking... A LOT! haha Tim and I have been chillin' and that's cool, my friends and I are all on good terms, kinda twisted ( Read more... )

Looking through the pictures ( Read more... )

Wow, Christmas is finally come and gone. What a relief yet I can't wait for next year's. What did I get? I guess I'll tell since I have nothing better to type about ( Read more... )

*sigh* I'm so sick of feeling as if I'm being controled by men. And when I don't feel like I am, it's my destiny still that feels this weight of entangled relationships. Why couldn't this all happen five years from now? I've finally found someone who loves me, cares for me, would do anything for me, and with that comes the obligation to treat him ( Read more... )