[Fanfiction] Without (2/3)
Title: Without (2/3)
Author: polari-s
Pairing: Yesung/Ryeowook
Raiting: PG13
Genre: romance, drama
Warning: gender switched, mentions of sex
Summary: It wasn't mean to be like this, kids aren't suppose to grow up from those situations, but Ryeowook had made up her mind already.
previous
Ryeowook had a million thoughts in her mind while she was looking to the positive in her pregnancy test. But the one that kept on going to her mind was about Jongwoon. What would Jongwoon think about it? How could she have a kid with Jongwoon? From all the people, why having one from Jongwoon? But she was decided, Jongwoon wouldn't think about nothing nor do nothing, because she wasn't going to tell Jongwoon about that. It was so easy, specially because they didn't have a relationship, they didn't have the other's phone nor knew where they worked respectively. It was going to be easy, all that Ryeowook had to do is forget abut how get in Jongwoon's house and stop to attend to that club.
And it was that what Ryeowook did.
Not that she forgot about that house, about those sheets, about that smell of that man or of that club, but she pretended as if it didn't matter. Ryeowook didn't have to explain for anyone about her pregnancy, what made it even easier. If she was going to raise the children alone? Ryeowook accept it too and after a time got used to thought of taking care of a kid alone. And about money Ryeowook was already decided, not that she earned a lot being a simple photographer, but this just pushed forward her wish to make a studio.
So it was all decided for Ryeowook.
But Jongwoon was worried in the other night when he went to the club once again to find Ryeowook, because she wasn't there, she wasn't every where to be seen and he stayed there and searched all the night. Giving up, Jongwoon went to his house with the hope of seeing Ryeowook standing there telling him that she gave up on going to the clubs if she could go right to his house, but a frown raised in his face when he didn't find her there.
"Maybe not today." Jongwoon whispered looking to his empty bed with his arms crossed.
So Jongwoon searched for Ryeowook in the other day and the day after that and continued it for about two weeks. But in all those days Jongwoon would sleep alone in his bed asking himself why Ryeowook wasn't showing up. Worry was also in his face while he was trying to teach those kids in the morning after he gave up of searching in the clubs. So after finishing his sing class with those kids, Jongwoon went right straight to a public hospital near that place to ask if there was some woman named Ryeowook, worrying appearing when they said there were two woman with that man and then disappearing when Jongwoon saw it wasn't his Ryeowook. Jongwoon even tried to search in the telephone list, but there was so much Kim Ryeowook that he gave up of it too.
After being one month searching in every place he would go for Ryeowook, Jongwoon stopped for a while.
"I must stop." he said laying in his bed, that continued filled only with his body since Ryeowook last lay on. "She is just a woman. A grow up one."
Jongwoon's routine went back to the normal then. With the exception that he didn't go to clubs anymore nor slept with girls. He wasn't ready yet as all the time he would look at a woman his thoughts would go as how much Ryeowook's features were better or her voice or her eyes. After two months Jongwoon was a normal sing teacher, who still visited his beloved parents and still would drink coffee as water. But in every night, even if Jongwoon would constantly change the sheets and clean them, her smell was still there haunting him making him think constantly of her. But Jongwoon didn't care about it, because as long as his mind still keep Ryeowook fresh in his memory, he was happy. It was sick, but it made Jongwoon good.
If Ryeowook said that she wasn't caring of being alone, taking care of a studio and a 4 months old pregnant belly, she would be lying. It was being exhaustive training those new photographers by the day and getting home feeling nausea and hungry at the same time. Yet she was happy, specially after going to the doctor to see the gender of the kid.
"It's a little boy." the doctor had said while her eyes were glued in the screen seeing the baby as if sleeping peacefully.
"He is indeed handsome." Ryeowook giggled, probably raising any boy would be easier than raising a girl as she noticed with her parents.
But while Ryeowook was already in her bed looking dreamily to the "picture" of her son, she noticed one of the singularities she had found months before in Jongwoon. That nose's sharp. And her heart clenched a beat and she changed her mind. Maybe a girl as she would be better than a boy as Jongwoon.
And with it the time passed. Ryeowook's mind was so full with the preparations for her son, already called Hyunjoong, that her mind didn't have time to think about Jongwoon anymore. And as the only people who she talk to, was the people in her studio, which never asked her about that child father as they knew she was always alone.
Ryeowook blocked herself in a way that, after working, she, sometimes, would pass in baby's store to buy things, and then spend all the rest of the night thinking about that kid, fulling the kid's room and all more.
The time went extremely fast and when she noticed she was already getting in preparations to have Hyunjoong. But as she was alone in her house, Ryeowook had to call an ambulance to finally take her to the hospital. She got 5 hours feeling contractions after contractions, the pain was big and for the first time Ryeowook wanted someone to stay beside her and the first person who she remembered was Jongwoon.
"I don't need anyone." Ryeowook sighted and sat in the bed supporting the pain until that a doctor went to see if it was already time to have a baby.
While Ryeowook was pushing, all the pain went away and even if she was getting herself tired, she kept on pushing until she didn't have to push anymore and heard Hyunjoong cry. They cleaned the baby and gave him to her who kissed and cried silently with the baby.
"It's just us two." she whispered before giving to the doctors Hyunjoong again for they see if he was ok.
But while looking randomly to the door, which one nurse had just left open, Ryeowook saw a face she didn't see for almost 9 months. She was so sure that Jongwoon had passed through there that she just whispered the name of the man in her lips.
While that, Jongwoon went to one of the nurses and did what he did so much time before. He was feeling something terrible in his heart. Jongwoon's thoughts for Ryeowook suffocated him so much that he felt an urge to go to that club once again and even to that hospital with some hope to find that woman. Because suddenly his memories weren't enough to calm him. So he ask for them, as the last time he did it, if they had some Kim Ryeowook who passed through there, he was still worried if something bad could've happened to her.
"Actually, right now, Mr Kim." the woman sighted while gazing a list of people who were there in that night, already tired with the man's visits from almost 9 months ago. "A woman named Kim Ryeowook came into labor."
"It can't be her." Jongwoon sighted.
"You should give up Mr Kim. If you didn't find her back in that time, you simply won't now."
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Five years already. Hyunjoong was making already five and Ryeowook sighted seeing the boy opening his only present given by his mom. Ryeowook didn't met any other people beside the ones who worked for her. And she didn't regretted it, this only made her more affectioned with Hyunjoong. This made that the only one spot in her mind was filled with the little child. But not to remember Jongwoon each birthday of the kid or when Hyunjoong smiled, sang a child song, when only looking to that sharp of his nose or to that mark looking like Jeju's Island in the boys stomach, was hard. Yet Ryeowook smiled widely to that little boy, at least she had a part of Jongwoon, secretly, with her.
No, she wasn't being selfish to keep the child only for her and lie to the kid when he asked about his father. Ryeowook only didn't want to be a burning to Jongwoon. But the part of lies still hurt her as hell.
"Mom, where is my dad?" Hyunjoong asked while they were watching TV in a ordinary spring's day.
"Why are you asking this son?" Ryeowook asked giving a kind smile to the boy.
"Because I've already seen all the dad's of my friends of school." the six years old boy said playing with the hem of his shirt.
"Your dad... Is in a long way trip." Ryeowook said hugging the boy close to her.
"Can't I talk with him through the phone? And when is he coming back?"
"It's a little more complicated Hyun." she said kissing the boy's cheek. "You just have to wait." Then Ryeowook noticed how she should give to Hyunjoong a dad's presence.
"Oh mom, can I start to go to the same school to sing that my friends go?"
"I think it's fine." Ryeowook smiled again putting her thoughts beside.
"It's the Chungsun school. But don't forget mom, I want the teacher Yesung." Hyunjoong said pouting. "You must call them now!"
"Ok, I'll call for them." Ryeowook giggled. "Now you, shower."
While Hyunjoong went to the bathroom jumping happily, Ryeowook took the telephone's list and searched for the said school and then calling them.
"Hello?" a feminine voice answered the phone tiredly.
"Hi, I want to put my son in a sing class, is that possible?"
"Sing class with Mr Yesung?"
"That's right."
"Wait a second."
In the other side of the phone, the secretary looked to "Yesung" beside her packing his things to go back home.
"Mr Jongwoon. A woman is calling to have her son in your class, is that possible?" the woman asked hesitantly.
"Aish." Jongwoon sighted. "Ok ok, but it's the last one."
"Ok Mr Jongwoon." the woman smiled while Jongwoon left her after listening her talking in the phone. "You are a lucky woman, Mr Yesung opened only one space for your son."
Jongwoon really hated his Yesung "second" name, why someone as smart as his old teacher gave him such a name like this?
TBC
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AN: Hyunjoong isn't because of SS501's Hyunjoong, i mean, i don't listen to SS501 anyway lol
let's say it's his brother fault for Hyunjoong XD
Author: polari-s
Pairing: Yesung/Ryeowook
Raiting: PG13
Genre: romance, drama
Warning: gender switched, mentions of sex
Summary: It wasn't mean to be like this, kids aren't suppose to grow up from those situations, but Ryeowook had made up her mind already.
previous
Ryeowook had a million thoughts in her mind while she was looking to the positive in her pregnancy test. But the one that kept on going to her mind was about Jongwoon. What would Jongwoon think about it? How could she have a kid with Jongwoon? From all the people, why having one from Jongwoon? But she was decided, Jongwoon wouldn't think about nothing nor do nothing, because she wasn't going to tell Jongwoon about that. It was so easy, specially because they didn't have a relationship, they didn't have the other's phone nor knew where they worked respectively. It was going to be easy, all that Ryeowook had to do is forget abut how get in Jongwoon's house and stop to attend to that club.
And it was that what Ryeowook did.
Not that she forgot about that house, about those sheets, about that smell of that man or of that club, but she pretended as if it didn't matter. Ryeowook didn't have to explain for anyone about her pregnancy, what made it even easier. If she was going to raise the children alone? Ryeowook accept it too and after a time got used to thought of taking care of a kid alone. And about money Ryeowook was already decided, not that she earned a lot being a simple photographer, but this just pushed forward her wish to make a studio.
So it was all decided for Ryeowook.
But Jongwoon was worried in the other night when he went to the club once again to find Ryeowook, because she wasn't there, she wasn't every where to be seen and he stayed there and searched all the night. Giving up, Jongwoon went to his house with the hope of seeing Ryeowook standing there telling him that she gave up on going to the clubs if she could go right to his house, but a frown raised in his face when he didn't find her there.
"Maybe not today." Jongwoon whispered looking to his empty bed with his arms crossed.
So Jongwoon searched for Ryeowook in the other day and the day after that and continued it for about two weeks. But in all those days Jongwoon would sleep alone in his bed asking himself why Ryeowook wasn't showing up. Worry was also in his face while he was trying to teach those kids in the morning after he gave up of searching in the clubs. So after finishing his sing class with those kids, Jongwoon went right straight to a public hospital near that place to ask if there was some woman named Ryeowook, worrying appearing when they said there were two woman with that man and then disappearing when Jongwoon saw it wasn't his Ryeowook. Jongwoon even tried to search in the telephone list, but there was so much Kim Ryeowook that he gave up of it too.
After being one month searching in every place he would go for Ryeowook, Jongwoon stopped for a while.
"I must stop." he said laying in his bed, that continued filled only with his body since Ryeowook last lay on. "She is just a woman. A grow up one."
Jongwoon's routine went back to the normal then. With the exception that he didn't go to clubs anymore nor slept with girls. He wasn't ready yet as all the time he would look at a woman his thoughts would go as how much Ryeowook's features were better or her voice or her eyes. After two months Jongwoon was a normal sing teacher, who still visited his beloved parents and still would drink coffee as water. But in every night, even if Jongwoon would constantly change the sheets and clean them, her smell was still there haunting him making him think constantly of her. But Jongwoon didn't care about it, because as long as his mind still keep Ryeowook fresh in his memory, he was happy. It was sick, but it made Jongwoon good.
If Ryeowook said that she wasn't caring of being alone, taking care of a studio and a 4 months old pregnant belly, she would be lying. It was being exhaustive training those new photographers by the day and getting home feeling nausea and hungry at the same time. Yet she was happy, specially after going to the doctor to see the gender of the kid.
"It's a little boy." the doctor had said while her eyes were glued in the screen seeing the baby as if sleeping peacefully.
"He is indeed handsome." Ryeowook giggled, probably raising any boy would be easier than raising a girl as she noticed with her parents.
But while Ryeowook was already in her bed looking dreamily to the "picture" of her son, she noticed one of the singularities she had found months before in Jongwoon. That nose's sharp. And her heart clenched a beat and she changed her mind. Maybe a girl as she would be better than a boy as Jongwoon.
And with it the time passed. Ryeowook's mind was so full with the preparations for her son, already called Hyunjoong, that her mind didn't have time to think about Jongwoon anymore. And as the only people who she talk to, was the people in her studio, which never asked her about that child father as they knew she was always alone.
Ryeowook blocked herself in a way that, after working, she, sometimes, would pass in baby's store to buy things, and then spend all the rest of the night thinking about that kid, fulling the kid's room and all more.
The time went extremely fast and when she noticed she was already getting in preparations to have Hyunjoong. But as she was alone in her house, Ryeowook had to call an ambulance to finally take her to the hospital. She got 5 hours feeling contractions after contractions, the pain was big and for the first time Ryeowook wanted someone to stay beside her and the first person who she remembered was Jongwoon.
"I don't need anyone." Ryeowook sighted and sat in the bed supporting the pain until that a doctor went to see if it was already time to have a baby.
While Ryeowook was pushing, all the pain went away and even if she was getting herself tired, she kept on pushing until she didn't have to push anymore and heard Hyunjoong cry. They cleaned the baby and gave him to her who kissed and cried silently with the baby.
"It's just us two." she whispered before giving to the doctors Hyunjoong again for they see if he was ok.
But while looking randomly to the door, which one nurse had just left open, Ryeowook saw a face she didn't see for almost 9 months. She was so sure that Jongwoon had passed through there that she just whispered the name of the man in her lips.
While that, Jongwoon went to one of the nurses and did what he did so much time before. He was feeling something terrible in his heart. Jongwoon's thoughts for Ryeowook suffocated him so much that he felt an urge to go to that club once again and even to that hospital with some hope to find that woman. Because suddenly his memories weren't enough to calm him. So he ask for them, as the last time he did it, if they had some Kim Ryeowook who passed through there, he was still worried if something bad could've happened to her.
"Actually, right now, Mr Kim." the woman sighted while gazing a list of people who were there in that night, already tired with the man's visits from almost 9 months ago. "A woman named Kim Ryeowook came into labor."
"It can't be her." Jongwoon sighted.
"You should give up Mr Kim. If you didn't find her back in that time, you simply won't now."
_________
Five years already. Hyunjoong was making already five and Ryeowook sighted seeing the boy opening his only present given by his mom. Ryeowook didn't met any other people beside the ones who worked for her. And she didn't regretted it, this only made her more affectioned with Hyunjoong. This made that the only one spot in her mind was filled with the little child. But not to remember Jongwoon each birthday of the kid or when Hyunjoong smiled, sang a child song, when only looking to that sharp of his nose or to that mark looking like Jeju's Island in the boys stomach, was hard. Yet Ryeowook smiled widely to that little boy, at least she had a part of Jongwoon, secretly, with her.
No, she wasn't being selfish to keep the child only for her and lie to the kid when he asked about his father. Ryeowook only didn't want to be a burning to Jongwoon. But the part of lies still hurt her as hell.
"Mom, where is my dad?" Hyunjoong asked while they were watching TV in a ordinary spring's day.
"Why are you asking this son?" Ryeowook asked giving a kind smile to the boy.
"Because I've already seen all the dad's of my friends of school." the six years old boy said playing with the hem of his shirt.
"Your dad... Is in a long way trip." Ryeowook said hugging the boy close to her.
"Can't I talk with him through the phone? And when is he coming back?"
"It's a little more complicated Hyun." she said kissing the boy's cheek. "You just have to wait." Then Ryeowook noticed how she should give to Hyunjoong a dad's presence.
"Oh mom, can I start to go to the same school to sing that my friends go?"
"I think it's fine." Ryeowook smiled again putting her thoughts beside.
"It's the Chungsun school. But don't forget mom, I want the teacher Yesung." Hyunjoong said pouting. "You must call them now!"
"Ok, I'll call for them." Ryeowook giggled. "Now you, shower."
While Hyunjoong went to the bathroom jumping happily, Ryeowook took the telephone's list and searched for the said school and then calling them.
"Hello?" a feminine voice answered the phone tiredly.
"Hi, I want to put my son in a sing class, is that possible?"
"Sing class with Mr Yesung?"
"That's right."
"Wait a second."
In the other side of the phone, the secretary looked to "Yesung" beside her packing his things to go back home.
"Mr Jongwoon. A woman is calling to have her son in your class, is that possible?" the woman asked hesitantly.
"Aish." Jongwoon sighted. "Ok ok, but it's the last one."
"Ok Mr Jongwoon." the woman smiled while Jongwoon left her after listening her talking in the phone. "You are a lucky woman, Mr Yesung opened only one space for your son."
Jongwoon really hated his Yesung "second" name, why someone as smart as his old teacher gave him such a name like this?
TBC
next
AN: Hyunjoong isn't because of SS501's Hyunjoong, i mean, i don't listen to SS501 anyway lol
let's say it's his brother fault for Hyunjoong XD