[Fanfiction] Without (3/3)
Title: Without (3/3)
Author: polari-s
Pairing: Yesung/Ryeowook
Raiting: PG13
Genre: romance, drama
Warning: gender switched, mentions of sex
Summary: It wasn't mean to be like this, kids aren't suppose to grow up from those situations, but Ryeowook had made up her mind already.
AN: sorry for taking so long, two days in lee-jinki's house, then school, school and school e_e
anyway, hope you like ^^
previous
Hyunjoong was the happiest kid while he entered in that big kind of school trying to find his friends, or his class as he was late, through the room where sound of a lot of instruments were playing. But while walking to find his class, Hyunjoong found a man really rushed with some papers in his hands.
"Excuse me Mr." Hyunjoong said stopping the man getting from him a little annoyed face. "I don't know where is my class."
"And you are here for?" the man asked while softened his expression.
"Sing class with Mr Yesung."
"Lucky yours, I'm Mr Yesung and we are both late." Jongwoon smiled taking the boy's hand and walking to their class.
Hyunjooong was admired with his teacher, he never ever had one man guiding him kindly like this nor having a nose sharp so looked like his. He didn't hate his father who was still traveling, according to his mother, but the boy wanted some dad close to him, just like Mr Yesung was being.
"We got. Don't forget how to get in this class." Jongwoon said opening the door and getting both of them in the full and noisy class.
Hyunjoong soon saw his friends and left Jongwoon's hand to sit with them, but when he was going to talk with them, Jongwoon, or rather Yesung for them, was asking for their attention and Hyunjoong looked with big eyes to his teacher. Soon all the kids were quiet and Jongwoon started to ask them, one for one, to sing a little piece of a random song. Hyunjoong suddenly felt himself fearful. He never sang before in front of anyone from exception his mother who always told him that his voice was cute.
And then it was Hyunjoong's time to sing, but his voice couldn't leave his throat as he was so nervous with all the gazes above him.
"Just sing." Jongwoon said kindly.
"I... I..."
"You don't have to be scared, everyone already passed through this." Jongwoon smiled waiting in his desk until that Hyunjoong started, his voice started a little unsure and fearful, but when Hyunjoong looked to Jongwoon, he found the courage to keep singing strongly with his lunges and didn't fail to amuse all of the people in the room with that smooth yet strong voice.
Jongwoon was amused looking to Hyunjoong when he stopped singing, he never thought that once again he could hear a so similar voice with that one who he missed long ago. Jongwoon never had looked again for Ryeowook, because he then thought that if the woman was hiding, then who was him to find her?
"Mr Yesung?" the little voice broke Jongwoon's thoughts and made him to look at the boy who he wanted to keep for remembering himself so much of her. Jongwoon knew it was silly from him, but he just needed to ask.
"Hyunjoong, do you know some woman called Ryeowook?"
"It's my mother's name." Hyunjoong frowned and looked worried to his teacher, but then a smiled was formed. "Do you know her?"
"Maybe." Jongwoon said feeling his heart beating too fast to his body and brain. His thoughts were un hundred times faster looking to that kid. It wouldn't be a coincidence, who more kids would be so similar with his Ryeowook and have a mother with that name? But the bell ring filled the room "waking" Jongwoon to look at the kids running out from the door. But Hyunjoong didn't, he instead ran to Jongwoon and stopped in front of him until that he looked down to the kid. "You should go, your parents must've come to get you."
"My mom should." Hyunjoong corrected. "But Mr Yesung, wouldn't you like to see my mom? Maybe then you could see if she is who you know!"
"I don't think is a good idea Hyunjoong." Jongwoon said, but the kid was already pulling his arm and not that Jongwoon couldn't let go off from a 6 years old kid, but his body was just accepting the idea of maybe, just maybe, finally look at Ryeowook once again. And his eyes were amused when, after a couple of seconds, he was in the gates with Hyunjoong who was walking to a woman. That woman.
Jongwoon's knees felt weak as he never felt before, his breathe became erratic as he continued to walk until he was face to face with that one who he missed so deeply. Ryeowook's face was nothing more than disbelieve and even if Jongwoon did missed her, he wasn't able to see how much she felt broken inside.
"Where did you find him Hyunjoong?" Ryeowook asked through her teethes, not giving to Hyunjoong any attention.
"I'm his sing teacher." Jongwoon answered feeling a little of fear standing in front of Ryeowook.
"Mom?" Hyunjoong asked looking up. "Why are you like this? Mr Yesung told me he might know someone like you. Do you know him too?"
"Why did you hide yourself?" were what left Jongwoon's lips trying to hold back the tears of how much he wanted to touch the woman to know if she was really there.
"Hyunjoong, go inside the car." Ryeowook said in a thin voice.
With fearful and teary eyes and not doing if he did something wrong, the boy entered, but he continued to look at the two adults even if he was hearing nothing.
"Why did you?" Jongwoon asked again. "I've looked for you for a long time."
"For more sex?" Ryeowook laughed feeling her eyes get teary as well. "We didn't know each other well and..."
"What if I was already in love with you?" Jongwoon said giving a step forward to her getting a little laugh from Ryeowook. "I got worried for you, deeply."
"It wasn't so hard only for you." Ryeowook said looking away.
"But it was you who ran away. You left me, you know where I lived."
"But you still didn't want me in your bed by the morning." Ryeowook screamed her eyes no longer holding the tears while looking to Jongwoon.
"And yet you got another man and got pregnant with him?"
"Don't say that." Ryeowook said looking away again and hugging herself.
"That you left me to have a kid with another man?"
"Do you want the true? I felt scared. Was that. I got pregnant and still didn't know you too well. How could I have a son with someone who I was just sleeping yet so in love?" she was screaming again, her gaze in the man.
"Is he..." Jongwoon's voice broke.
"Your son, I never knew any other man since then." Ryeowook said continuing to cry.
"Were you crazy?" Jongwoon asked taking Ryeowook's face in both his hands locking their gaze.
"What would you say or do?" Ryeowook asked putting her hands above his.
"I... I don't know, but I wouldn't let you go." Jongwoon whispered. "I wouldn't want to lose both of you. You took six years away from me when I could've been there."
"Why would..."
"Because I was in love with you! I wouldn't look for you for years nor be so happy for looking at you right now if I wasn't in love for you."
"I..." It hurted Ryeowook, it hurted more than she ever thought it would by feel Jongwoon's touch, by hear him saying those things. She didn't know he would feel those things toward her, that what she wanted was that Jongwoon hugged her, that he comforted her. And so was what Jongwoon did, he hugged Ryeowook and put her head in his neck where she cried nonstop. And then it felt so good to her and so right.
"Live with me now." Jongwoon whispered passing his hand in her back.
"I... I couldn't..." She said pushing Jongwoon a little away and looking to him.
"Of course you can. I want it. Just depends on you now." Jongwoon whispered feeling her hair flaying in his fingers.
"But Hyunjoong..."
"I'm his father, I want to take the responsibilities..."
"I need to go." Ryeowook said leaving Jongwoon's arms.
"Don't disappear again." Jongwoon said grabbing her wrist.
"I won't." Ryeowook whispered leaving him and not even looking back while entering in the car and driving away.
"Mom?" Hyunjoong asked from his sit. "Did you really know Mr Yesung?"
Ryeowook didn't answered, in fact, she didn't say nothing more than telling Hyunjoong to wait in the car while she entered in their house. Ryeowook fell in the floor letting the tears run down her cheeks. It was this what she wanted, right? Be alone with her son. But it felt so right having Jongwoon's comfort even if it didn't last one hole minute. Then she made her mind. She went to her room and took a big bag and filled with her clothes, then she went to Hyunjoong's room and did the same with another bag. Took some food and went to the car again.
"Why those bags?" Hyunjoong asked confused.
"We are leaving." Ryeowook answered simply smiling to the boy.
"But mom..."
"Food?" she asked giving him some candies.
"Thanks mom." Hyunjoong said looking to his lap and eating silently.
Ryeowook started the car and went away, she didn't drive for too much, her mind reminding her the way. After 5 minutes or so, she was already with the car stopped in front of a yellow house. Ryeowook looked behind to where Hyunjoong was and smiled at him.
"Son. Sorry, I've lied to you. Your dad wasn't traveling. We were. But now it's going to be everything ok. And it was you who found him." she smiled.
Hyunjoong wasn't understanding too much of his mother's words, but when he saw Mr Yesung leaving the front door and looking a little confused, yet happy, to them. Hyunjoong then looked to his mother again.
"Is Mr Yesung my father?"
"He is your dad Jongwoon." Ryeowook smiled kissing Hyunjoong's forehead. "And I love him son. Would you love him too?"
"Of course!" Hyunjoong screamed and left the car to run to Jongwoon.
END
Author: polari-s
Pairing: Yesung/Ryeowook
Raiting: PG13
Genre: romance, drama
Warning: gender switched, mentions of sex
Summary: It wasn't mean to be like this, kids aren't suppose to grow up from those situations, but Ryeowook had made up her mind already.
AN: sorry for taking so long, two days in lee-jinki's house, then school, school and school e_e
anyway, hope you like ^^
previous
Hyunjoong was the happiest kid while he entered in that big kind of school trying to find his friends, or his class as he was late, through the room where sound of a lot of instruments were playing. But while walking to find his class, Hyunjoong found a man really rushed with some papers in his hands.
"Excuse me Mr." Hyunjoong said stopping the man getting from him a little annoyed face. "I don't know where is my class."
"And you are here for?" the man asked while softened his expression.
"Sing class with Mr Yesung."
"Lucky yours, I'm Mr Yesung and we are both late." Jongwoon smiled taking the boy's hand and walking to their class.
Hyunjooong was admired with his teacher, he never ever had one man guiding him kindly like this nor having a nose sharp so looked like his. He didn't hate his father who was still traveling, according to his mother, but the boy wanted some dad close to him, just like Mr Yesung was being.
"We got. Don't forget how to get in this class." Jongwoon said opening the door and getting both of them in the full and noisy class.
Hyunjoong soon saw his friends and left Jongwoon's hand to sit with them, but when he was going to talk with them, Jongwoon, or rather Yesung for them, was asking for their attention and Hyunjoong looked with big eyes to his teacher. Soon all the kids were quiet and Jongwoon started to ask them, one for one, to sing a little piece of a random song. Hyunjoong suddenly felt himself fearful. He never sang before in front of anyone from exception his mother who always told him that his voice was cute.
And then it was Hyunjoong's time to sing, but his voice couldn't leave his throat as he was so nervous with all the gazes above him.
"Just sing." Jongwoon said kindly.
"I... I..."
"You don't have to be scared, everyone already passed through this." Jongwoon smiled waiting in his desk until that Hyunjoong started, his voice started a little unsure and fearful, but when Hyunjoong looked to Jongwoon, he found the courage to keep singing strongly with his lunges and didn't fail to amuse all of the people in the room with that smooth yet strong voice.
Jongwoon was amused looking to Hyunjoong when he stopped singing, he never thought that once again he could hear a so similar voice with that one who he missed long ago. Jongwoon never had looked again for Ryeowook, because he then thought that if the woman was hiding, then who was him to find her?
"Mr Yesung?" the little voice broke Jongwoon's thoughts and made him to look at the boy who he wanted to keep for remembering himself so much of her. Jongwoon knew it was silly from him, but he just needed to ask.
"Hyunjoong, do you know some woman called Ryeowook?"
"It's my mother's name." Hyunjoong frowned and looked worried to his teacher, but then a smiled was formed. "Do you know her?"
"Maybe." Jongwoon said feeling his heart beating too fast to his body and brain. His thoughts were un hundred times faster looking to that kid. It wouldn't be a coincidence, who more kids would be so similar with his Ryeowook and have a mother with that name? But the bell ring filled the room "waking" Jongwoon to look at the kids running out from the door. But Hyunjoong didn't, he instead ran to Jongwoon and stopped in front of him until that he looked down to the kid. "You should go, your parents must've come to get you."
"My mom should." Hyunjoong corrected. "But Mr Yesung, wouldn't you like to see my mom? Maybe then you could see if she is who you know!"
"I don't think is a good idea Hyunjoong." Jongwoon said, but the kid was already pulling his arm and not that Jongwoon couldn't let go off from a 6 years old kid, but his body was just accepting the idea of maybe, just maybe, finally look at Ryeowook once again. And his eyes were amused when, after a couple of seconds, he was in the gates with Hyunjoong who was walking to a woman. That woman.
Jongwoon's knees felt weak as he never felt before, his breathe became erratic as he continued to walk until he was face to face with that one who he missed so deeply. Ryeowook's face was nothing more than disbelieve and even if Jongwoon did missed her, he wasn't able to see how much she felt broken inside.
"Where did you find him Hyunjoong?" Ryeowook asked through her teethes, not giving to Hyunjoong any attention.
"I'm his sing teacher." Jongwoon answered feeling a little of fear standing in front of Ryeowook.
"Mom?" Hyunjoong asked looking up. "Why are you like this? Mr Yesung told me he might know someone like you. Do you know him too?"
"Why did you hide yourself?" were what left Jongwoon's lips trying to hold back the tears of how much he wanted to touch the woman to know if she was really there.
"Hyunjoong, go inside the car." Ryeowook said in a thin voice.
With fearful and teary eyes and not doing if he did something wrong, the boy entered, but he continued to look at the two adults even if he was hearing nothing.
"Why did you?" Jongwoon asked again. "I've looked for you for a long time."
"For more sex?" Ryeowook laughed feeling her eyes get teary as well. "We didn't know each other well and..."
"What if I was already in love with you?" Jongwoon said giving a step forward to her getting a little laugh from Ryeowook. "I got worried for you, deeply."
"It wasn't so hard only for you." Ryeowook said looking away.
"But it was you who ran away. You left me, you know where I lived."
"But you still didn't want me in your bed by the morning." Ryeowook screamed her eyes no longer holding the tears while looking to Jongwoon.
"And yet you got another man and got pregnant with him?"
"Don't say that." Ryeowook said looking away again and hugging herself.
"That you left me to have a kid with another man?"
"Do you want the true? I felt scared. Was that. I got pregnant and still didn't know you too well. How could I have a son with someone who I was just sleeping yet so in love?" she was screaming again, her gaze in the man.
"Is he..." Jongwoon's voice broke.
"Your son, I never knew any other man since then." Ryeowook said continuing to cry.
"Were you crazy?" Jongwoon asked taking Ryeowook's face in both his hands locking their gaze.
"What would you say or do?" Ryeowook asked putting her hands above his.
"I... I don't know, but I wouldn't let you go." Jongwoon whispered. "I wouldn't want to lose both of you. You took six years away from me when I could've been there."
"Why would..."
"Because I was in love with you! I wouldn't look for you for years nor be so happy for looking at you right now if I wasn't in love for you."
"I..." It hurted Ryeowook, it hurted more than she ever thought it would by feel Jongwoon's touch, by hear him saying those things. She didn't know he would feel those things toward her, that what she wanted was that Jongwoon hugged her, that he comforted her. And so was what Jongwoon did, he hugged Ryeowook and put her head in his neck where she cried nonstop. And then it felt so good to her and so right.
"Live with me now." Jongwoon whispered passing his hand in her back.
"I... I couldn't..." She said pushing Jongwoon a little away and looking to him.
"Of course you can. I want it. Just depends on you now." Jongwoon whispered feeling her hair flaying in his fingers.
"But Hyunjoong..."
"I'm his father, I want to take the responsibilities..."
"I need to go." Ryeowook said leaving Jongwoon's arms.
"Don't disappear again." Jongwoon said grabbing her wrist.
"I won't." Ryeowook whispered leaving him and not even looking back while entering in the car and driving away.
"Mom?" Hyunjoong asked from his sit. "Did you really know Mr Yesung?"
Ryeowook didn't answered, in fact, she didn't say nothing more than telling Hyunjoong to wait in the car while she entered in their house. Ryeowook fell in the floor letting the tears run down her cheeks. It was this what she wanted, right? Be alone with her son. But it felt so right having Jongwoon's comfort even if it didn't last one hole minute. Then she made her mind. She went to her room and took a big bag and filled with her clothes, then she went to Hyunjoong's room and did the same with another bag. Took some food and went to the car again.
"Why those bags?" Hyunjoong asked confused.
"We are leaving." Ryeowook answered simply smiling to the boy.
"But mom..."
"Food?" she asked giving him some candies.
"Thanks mom." Hyunjoong said looking to his lap and eating silently.
Ryeowook started the car and went away, she didn't drive for too much, her mind reminding her the way. After 5 minutes or so, she was already with the car stopped in front of a yellow house. Ryeowook looked behind to where Hyunjoong was and smiled at him.
"Son. Sorry, I've lied to you. Your dad wasn't traveling. We were. But now it's going to be everything ok. And it was you who found him." she smiled.
Hyunjoong wasn't understanding too much of his mother's words, but when he saw Mr Yesung leaving the front door and looking a little confused, yet happy, to them. Hyunjoong then looked to his mother again.
"Is Mr Yesung my father?"
"He is your dad Jongwoon." Ryeowook smiled kissing Hyunjoong's forehead. "And I love him son. Would you love him too?"
"Of course!" Hyunjoong screamed and left the car to run to Jongwoon.
END