[Fanfiction] Unchange (7/8)
Title: Unchange (7/8)
Author: polari-s
Pairing: Yewook. friendship!ryeomin
Raiting: PG13
Genre: angst, romance, AU
Summary: Nothing would change what will happen to Ryeowook.
Warning: character dead
previous
AN: i'm sorry for taking too much to update, it's was getting kind of confused and i wasn't so much excited to update DX
anyway, this would be the last one, but it would have too much thing for just one chapter, so the next will be the last one having the obvious, or not, end.
once again sorry if i took too much time, but, as i said, i didn't have to much excitement to do so.
Even if it rained all the night or that the thunders were around, the morning came with a beautiful sun entering through the curtains and shining in the two still sleep bodies laying in the king-sizered bed. But even if the nature wanted to be pretty, Ryeowook's sickness was still there and it didn't change the fact that in that exactly moment his head started to ache waking the man.
Ryeowook's eyes opened lazily and the first thing he saw was the chest of Yesung close to his face. Looking up of that body, Ryeowook's gaze, a little blurred, found Yesung's asleep face, his mouth slightly open and his eyes moving from side to side under his eyelids. Ryeowook could still feel Yesung's arms surrounding his body and the heat was leaving him calmer so he rested again his face in Yesung's chest smelling the acid scent from the man.
Ryeowook then closed his eyes once again forgetting completely of his headache.
__________
Yesung only woke up when he started to hear some little sobs coming from his side. Opening his eyes, Yesung saw Ryeowook curled in a ball crying which was making his fragile, and still naked, body to shake.
"Why are you crying?" Yesung whispered touching Ryeowook and when he did it, he felt Ryeowook's skin burn under his fingers. "Fever again..."
Yesung didn't hesitate to raise from the bed, go to Ryeowook's side and take the man in his arms. Ryeowook just curled himself in Yesung's chest again while this man took him to his bathroom. All that Ryeowook was hearing were the sound of the shower being started and Yesung's husky voice asking for him to stand in the floor, as he did.
The water ran icy in Ryeowook's skin making him hug Yesung to find some heat and to keep stood.
"Will you ever tell me what is and what happened to you?" Yesung asked passing his hand in the other man's back.
"It... Was never like that..." Ryeowook started to say in the middle of his sobs. "I was happy and healthy... With my parents and Sungmin... Until that... I had to count only... With hyung..." Ryeowook could've collapsed right in the floor, but Yesung hugged him even tighter. "It was... so hard... But I still managed... And then it started..."
They stayed like this for more of couple of minutes, the water still running through them and Yesung feeling Ryeowook's skin each time colder and his body shaking each time less.
"Are you feeling better?" Yesung asked just a little above from a whisper.
"I... Yesung..." Ryeowook whispered burring his face in the man's chest. "I can't see."
"What are you saying?" Yesung asked taking Ryeowook's chin making the man look up, his eyes were open, moving and still crying, but not focusing in anything.
"Nothing."
"Why?" Yesung asked in an angry tone almost also crying. "Why is this happening?"
"I'm sorry Yesung." Ryeowook said closing his eyes. "It's... Brain tumor, sorry..."
"I will call a doctor." Yesung said decided closing the shower and taking some towels to dry them. After it, Yesung took Ryeowook's clothes and put those in the man then taking him to the bed under the blanket before getting himself dressed. Yesung did it all crying silently and with his hands shaking slightly.
"I will not take too much time." Yesung whispered trying to calm Ryeowook who was laying and still crying.
Yesung kissed Ryeowook's cheek and ran out of the bedroom. Left alone, Ryeowook hugged himself and cried even more, he cried more than he could've done in the day he discovered about his disease, he was crying maybe the same amount of when his parents died. Ryeowook didn't want to let go, he didn't want to leave Yesung and he surely knew that Yesung didn't want it either. Ryeowook tried again to open his eyes to see something, but as before, he could only see black. And what hurted the most in him, wasn't the fact that he couldn't see anything anymore, but the fact that those brain tumors were "spreading" as the doctor had said.
"Ryeowook." Yesung called breathless. "I talked with my father, and the doctor is coming." Then Ryeowook felt the small hand pass in his cheek. "Stop crying..." Yesung asked doing the opposite of his wish. "You'll be fine..."
"It won't Yesung... It..."
"Stop it! Let's... Let's sleep." Yesung said laying beside Ryeowook and hugging him. "Let's dream... Because we'll stay with each other more, and you'll see again."
"Yesung, I'm scared..."
"You don't have to. The doctors will make you see again."
"It's not that...It's more..." Ryeowook said hugging Yesung back.
"Don't think about that." Yesung whispered. "Just sleep a little." and then Yesung started to sing a quiet and soft song that entered in Ryeowook's ears making his body get calmer. Ryeowook even thanked God, that he didn't lost his hearing, before sleeping in Yesung's embrace.
__________
"I want that you make him fine!"
Ryeowook woke up with Yesung's scream, and when he opened his eyes, he remembered why would the man be screaming as he saw just black.
"Sorry Mr. Yesung. The only thing that we can do is to put him comfortable in the hospital."
Hearing the stranger's voice, Ryeowook sat up not knowing what to do.
"Ryeowook, sorry." Yesung leaned in the man and sat beside him. "Won't you even check him?"
"I could check his eyes and tell you already the diagnostic you've told me. I could check his blood, his hair and everything more. But we doctors can't cure cancer, not this type..."
"So do it." Yesung said with angry tone. "Do it now. Find the cure."
"We've been looking it for years with a lot of people, are you telling..."
"I don't care!" Yesung screamed, this time letting Ryeowook scared. "At least keep doing something!"
"Just don't fire me if it won't help."
Assuming from the silence followed by the sound of the door closing, Ryeowook thought they were alone again, but kept stopped with Yesung's arm around his shoulder.
"I have to talk with Sungmin."
"Do you want to call him?" Ryeowook felt relieved that Yesung's tone was now calmer.
"Yes, he must know and..."
For a second Yesung's arm wasn't around him and in the other was again while the man took the phone beside his bed.
"The number?"
Ryeowook told him the number and kept quiet again, what would he say to Sungmin? That, because of him, after losing a little part of his memory, went to Yesung's house, had sex with the man and then suddenly got blind? Sungmin would just kill him.
"Here." Yesung said putting the phone in Ryeowook's hand, who put it in his ear. It didn't take too much time to Sungmin answer it.
"Hello?"
"Sungmin?"
"Ryeowook? Thank God, I'm here in your apartment, I was crazy trying to call you and then I saw that you left your cellphone here. Where are you? Is everything right?"
"Calm down hyung. It was you who wanted it, you called to Yesung and all."
"So you are in his house? Did he treat you nice? Did you eat?"
"Yes hyung... I'm... fine..."
"Tell him that we are going to Jubung hospital." Yesung said putting a hand in Ryeowook's shoulder encouraging the man who was in verge of tears.
"Hyung... We are going to... Jubung hospital. Could you go there?"
"What did happen to you going to the hospital?" Sungmin's voice was now more terrified than before. "Is you worst? What is happening?"
"Calm hyung. I'm breathing, ain't I?" Ryeowook said forcing a laugh in the end. "Meet us there hyung."
"Of course that I'm going there."
And the phone went mute. Ryeowook knew Sungmin were worried too much to even say goodbye or a 'see you'.
"Ryeowook." Yesung whispered hugging Ryeowook who fell in his arms and started to cry again.
"I'm not... going to be cured, am I?" Ryeowook asked being interrupted by his sobs.
"Of course you will!"
"Don't... lie Yesung."
"We... We'll take care of all this."
__________
It took Yesung a couple of minutes to calm down Ryeowook and to finally take them to the hospital. They were all the way quiet in Yesung's car and when getting in the hospital, because of Yesung, Ryeowook believes, they were the first to be attended, and he was sent immediately to a room and a lot of doctors examined him. Ryeowook didn't rejected the men. He was just laying in the bed, not crying, not smiling and trying to ignore his thoughts together with the men's words about his situation.
"He is worst than we thought."
"It got too serious."
"We don't know if he has time."
"Now is too close to his essences functions."
"We can't do too much."
"I'm sorry"
Ryeowook was tired. Too much tired. So he just slept.
__________
"Ryeowook? Ryeowook?"
Ryeowook knew too well this voice to just ignore it so he just opened his eyes, but when he saw nothing more than darkness he remembered what had happened and sighted, next time registering two chubby and strong arms around his waist.
"They told me." Sungmin said not letting go. "I'm so sorry Ryeowook. You shouldn't be here."
"It's not your fault hyung." Ryeowook whispered hugging the man again.
"Ryeowook..." started a second voice, and even if Ryeowook didn't know him too well yet, he knew it was Yesung beside them and that he had stopped of cry recently. "The doctors talked with us and... They didn't... They don't..."
"It's ok Yesung." Ryeowook whispered playing with Sungmin's shirt while he was still atop of him. Ryeowook heard Yesung crying beside them and also felt Sungmin's tear getting his shirt wet, but he didn't say nothing nor do nothing.
"I'll get some air." Yesung said and left the room. Sungmin then sat in his chair, but kept his hand with Ryeowook's.
"Yesung is being so nice with you." Sungmin whispered after sniffing a little more.
"He mustn't do that." Ryeowook said in the same tone tightening his hold in Sungmin's hand.
"But he loves you, Ryeowook. Why didn't you see that yet?"
Ryeowook kept quiet leaving Sungmin's hand to press hide his face in his hands.
"I just didn't need it Sungmin. I didn't need another person to miss me, to feel pity for me."
"We are just caring about you. You would do the same for us, wouldn't you?"
"Of course." Ryeowook whispered letting his hand fall each side of his body. "I'm tired Sungmin."
"You should rest more." Sungmin said kissing Ryeowook's forehead. "I'm going to find Yesung."
Ryeowook heard the door close and kept quiet in the room, his hands together and eyes closed, he could sleep again if he wasn't so much afraid. Ryeowook didn't want that Sungmin left him, he didn't want to be alone, yet, he wanted only Yesung to be there. Of so much people, all that Ryeowook wanted was to have him, right beside him, to hug him, to comfort him. But suddenly Ryeowook wished he had his parents again, if he did, not that he would leave Yesung, but the comfort would be bigger.
But once again Ryeowook regretted to think in that way, if he was going to die, then he needed less people to suffer for him.
TBC
next
Author: polari-s
Pairing: Yewook. friendship!ryeomin
Raiting: PG13
Genre: angst, romance, AU
Summary: Nothing would change what will happen to Ryeowook.
Warning: character dead
previous
AN: i'm sorry for taking too much to update, it's was getting kind of confused and i wasn't so much excited to update DX
anyway, this would be the last one, but it would have too much thing for just one chapter, so the next will be the last one having the obvious, or not, end.
once again sorry if i took too much time, but, as i said, i didn't have to much excitement to do so.
Even if it rained all the night or that the thunders were around, the morning came with a beautiful sun entering through the curtains and shining in the two still sleep bodies laying in the king-sizered bed. But even if the nature wanted to be pretty, Ryeowook's sickness was still there and it didn't change the fact that in that exactly moment his head started to ache waking the man.
Ryeowook's eyes opened lazily and the first thing he saw was the chest of Yesung close to his face. Looking up of that body, Ryeowook's gaze, a little blurred, found Yesung's asleep face, his mouth slightly open and his eyes moving from side to side under his eyelids. Ryeowook could still feel Yesung's arms surrounding his body and the heat was leaving him calmer so he rested again his face in Yesung's chest smelling the acid scent from the man.
Ryeowook then closed his eyes once again forgetting completely of his headache.
__________
Yesung only woke up when he started to hear some little sobs coming from his side. Opening his eyes, Yesung saw Ryeowook curled in a ball crying which was making his fragile, and still naked, body to shake.
"Why are you crying?" Yesung whispered touching Ryeowook and when he did it, he felt Ryeowook's skin burn under his fingers. "Fever again..."
Yesung didn't hesitate to raise from the bed, go to Ryeowook's side and take the man in his arms. Ryeowook just curled himself in Yesung's chest again while this man took him to his bathroom. All that Ryeowook was hearing were the sound of the shower being started and Yesung's husky voice asking for him to stand in the floor, as he did.
The water ran icy in Ryeowook's skin making him hug Yesung to find some heat and to keep stood.
"Will you ever tell me what is and what happened to you?" Yesung asked passing his hand in the other man's back.
"It... Was never like that..." Ryeowook started to say in the middle of his sobs. "I was happy and healthy... With my parents and Sungmin... Until that... I had to count only... With hyung..." Ryeowook could've collapsed right in the floor, but Yesung hugged him even tighter. "It was... so hard... But I still managed... And then it started..."
They stayed like this for more of couple of minutes, the water still running through them and Yesung feeling Ryeowook's skin each time colder and his body shaking each time less.
"Are you feeling better?" Yesung asked just a little above from a whisper.
"I... Yesung..." Ryeowook whispered burring his face in the man's chest. "I can't see."
"What are you saying?" Yesung asked taking Ryeowook's chin making the man look up, his eyes were open, moving and still crying, but not focusing in anything.
"Nothing."
"Why?" Yesung asked in an angry tone almost also crying. "Why is this happening?"
"I'm sorry Yesung." Ryeowook said closing his eyes. "It's... Brain tumor, sorry..."
"I will call a doctor." Yesung said decided closing the shower and taking some towels to dry them. After it, Yesung took Ryeowook's clothes and put those in the man then taking him to the bed under the blanket before getting himself dressed. Yesung did it all crying silently and with his hands shaking slightly.
"I will not take too much time." Yesung whispered trying to calm Ryeowook who was laying and still crying.
Yesung kissed Ryeowook's cheek and ran out of the bedroom. Left alone, Ryeowook hugged himself and cried even more, he cried more than he could've done in the day he discovered about his disease, he was crying maybe the same amount of when his parents died. Ryeowook didn't want to let go, he didn't want to leave Yesung and he surely knew that Yesung didn't want it either. Ryeowook tried again to open his eyes to see something, but as before, he could only see black. And what hurted the most in him, wasn't the fact that he couldn't see anything anymore, but the fact that those brain tumors were "spreading" as the doctor had said.
"Ryeowook." Yesung called breathless. "I talked with my father, and the doctor is coming." Then Ryeowook felt the small hand pass in his cheek. "Stop crying..." Yesung asked doing the opposite of his wish. "You'll be fine..."
"It won't Yesung... It..."
"Stop it! Let's... Let's sleep." Yesung said laying beside Ryeowook and hugging him. "Let's dream... Because we'll stay with each other more, and you'll see again."
"Yesung, I'm scared..."
"You don't have to. The doctors will make you see again."
"It's not that...It's more..." Ryeowook said hugging Yesung back.
"Don't think about that." Yesung whispered. "Just sleep a little." and then Yesung started to sing a quiet and soft song that entered in Ryeowook's ears making his body get calmer. Ryeowook even thanked God, that he didn't lost his hearing, before sleeping in Yesung's embrace.
__________
"I want that you make him fine!"
Ryeowook woke up with Yesung's scream, and when he opened his eyes, he remembered why would the man be screaming as he saw just black.
"Sorry Mr. Yesung. The only thing that we can do is to put him comfortable in the hospital."
Hearing the stranger's voice, Ryeowook sat up not knowing what to do.
"Ryeowook, sorry." Yesung leaned in the man and sat beside him. "Won't you even check him?"
"I could check his eyes and tell you already the diagnostic you've told me. I could check his blood, his hair and everything more. But we doctors can't cure cancer, not this type..."
"So do it." Yesung said with angry tone. "Do it now. Find the cure."
"We've been looking it for years with a lot of people, are you telling..."
"I don't care!" Yesung screamed, this time letting Ryeowook scared. "At least keep doing something!"
"Just don't fire me if it won't help."
Assuming from the silence followed by the sound of the door closing, Ryeowook thought they were alone again, but kept stopped with Yesung's arm around his shoulder.
"I have to talk with Sungmin."
"Do you want to call him?" Ryeowook felt relieved that Yesung's tone was now calmer.
"Yes, he must know and..."
For a second Yesung's arm wasn't around him and in the other was again while the man took the phone beside his bed.
"The number?"
Ryeowook told him the number and kept quiet again, what would he say to Sungmin? That, because of him, after losing a little part of his memory, went to Yesung's house, had sex with the man and then suddenly got blind? Sungmin would just kill him.
"Here." Yesung said putting the phone in Ryeowook's hand, who put it in his ear. It didn't take too much time to Sungmin answer it.
"Hello?"
"Sungmin?"
"Ryeowook? Thank God, I'm here in your apartment, I was crazy trying to call you and then I saw that you left your cellphone here. Where are you? Is everything right?"
"Calm down hyung. It was you who wanted it, you called to Yesung and all."
"So you are in his house? Did he treat you nice? Did you eat?"
"Yes hyung... I'm... fine..."
"Tell him that we are going to Jubung hospital." Yesung said putting a hand in Ryeowook's shoulder encouraging the man who was in verge of tears.
"Hyung... We are going to... Jubung hospital. Could you go there?"
"What did happen to you going to the hospital?" Sungmin's voice was now more terrified than before. "Is you worst? What is happening?"
"Calm hyung. I'm breathing, ain't I?" Ryeowook said forcing a laugh in the end. "Meet us there hyung."
"Of course that I'm going there."
And the phone went mute. Ryeowook knew Sungmin were worried too much to even say goodbye or a 'see you'.
"Ryeowook." Yesung whispered hugging Ryeowook who fell in his arms and started to cry again.
"I'm not... going to be cured, am I?" Ryeowook asked being interrupted by his sobs.
"Of course you will!"
"Don't... lie Yesung."
"We... We'll take care of all this."
__________
It took Yesung a couple of minutes to calm down Ryeowook and to finally take them to the hospital. They were all the way quiet in Yesung's car and when getting in the hospital, because of Yesung, Ryeowook believes, they were the first to be attended, and he was sent immediately to a room and a lot of doctors examined him. Ryeowook didn't rejected the men. He was just laying in the bed, not crying, not smiling and trying to ignore his thoughts together with the men's words about his situation.
"He is worst than we thought."
"It got too serious."
"We don't know if he has time."
"Now is too close to his essences functions."
"We can't do too much."
"I'm sorry"
Ryeowook was tired. Too much tired. So he just slept.
__________
"Ryeowook? Ryeowook?"
Ryeowook knew too well this voice to just ignore it so he just opened his eyes, but when he saw nothing more than darkness he remembered what had happened and sighted, next time registering two chubby and strong arms around his waist.
"They told me." Sungmin said not letting go. "I'm so sorry Ryeowook. You shouldn't be here."
"It's not your fault hyung." Ryeowook whispered hugging the man again.
"Ryeowook..." started a second voice, and even if Ryeowook didn't know him too well yet, he knew it was Yesung beside them and that he had stopped of cry recently. "The doctors talked with us and... They didn't... They don't..."
"It's ok Yesung." Ryeowook whispered playing with Sungmin's shirt while he was still atop of him. Ryeowook heard Yesung crying beside them and also felt Sungmin's tear getting his shirt wet, but he didn't say nothing nor do nothing.
"I'll get some air." Yesung said and left the room. Sungmin then sat in his chair, but kept his hand with Ryeowook's.
"Yesung is being so nice with you." Sungmin whispered after sniffing a little more.
"He mustn't do that." Ryeowook said in the same tone tightening his hold in Sungmin's hand.
"But he loves you, Ryeowook. Why didn't you see that yet?"
Ryeowook kept quiet leaving Sungmin's hand to press hide his face in his hands.
"I just didn't need it Sungmin. I didn't need another person to miss me, to feel pity for me."
"We are just caring about you. You would do the same for us, wouldn't you?"
"Of course." Ryeowook whispered letting his hand fall each side of his body. "I'm tired Sungmin."
"You should rest more." Sungmin said kissing Ryeowook's forehead. "I'm going to find Yesung."
Ryeowook heard the door close and kept quiet in the room, his hands together and eyes closed, he could sleep again if he wasn't so much afraid. Ryeowook didn't want that Sungmin left him, he didn't want to be alone, yet, he wanted only Yesung to be there. Of so much people, all that Ryeowook wanted was to have him, right beside him, to hug him, to comfort him. But suddenly Ryeowook wished he had his parents again, if he did, not that he would leave Yesung, but the comfort would be bigger.
But once again Ryeowook regretted to think in that way, if he was going to die, then he needed less people to suffer for him.
TBC
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