have to be up in 5 hours..guess Ill drink a beer to make me sleepy ( Read more... )

So, I've been back in New Jersey for about a month now and it's...the same basically..just less and less people to hang out with, by that I mean to drink with. It's the only social activity I have yet I goto the bar alone and drink there, and maybe make some comments to some regulars and mostly stare at the large tv's which show football and other ( Read more... )

if anything has ever been a weakness for me it has been women ( Read more... )

i used to write as a sense of community. I used to care about people reading my entries and responding..showing me that soemone in the world cares a little bit about the thing i write...now i use lj as a form of looking back, as a form of creating memories for me to look back on ( Read more... )

still in Portland..NJ visit was ok. I got to see my sister get married for her second time (the first no one saw cause she eloped) I got the gang back together again and its sad that i am the only one who tries. Why do people still discuss high school 11 years later, I hate it ( Read more... )

I woke up today and didn't know if I should sit around and do nothing all day ..or goto school and finish a drawing that I really should finish. So instead I stayed home and started listening to Elliot Smith..ya know..to cheer me up ( Read more... )

wow , i have actually used my trusty, special, brown, .35 rapidogrpah pen so much i rubbed off the trademark and stuff on the side..that's awsome. I love this pen and the red .60 too. People saw that inking is bettwe with a pen + brush, that the line quality is more expressive. I say fuck that, thats more like painting. The drawing in itself is ( Read more... )

for the last couple months i have been trying to let go of the past. all i do is obsess over former relationships and i think about what went wrong and why they ended and i wish i could combine traits from eveyrone i ever cared about into one person.but that wont happen ( Read more... )

its bad enough I dont have any friends here..im looking at my lj profile that i never look and and see that a lot of people deleted me, now i hardly have any lj friends..but i know that not many of you actually care, or are on lj..to but to those who do care thanks, i care about you too!

at my flickr http://www.flickr.com/photos/odonreality/sets/72157594403373578/