on sunday i had to have an emergency appendectomy so i spent sunday night in the hospital.

right now there are four fire trucks and countless police cruisers 4 doors down. either someone else got shot or the house was gonna burn down. just another day in the ghetto.

Why worry? I'm still here for you.

love can't be all there is. any person, no matter their intelligence, can find love. if everyone can have it then how is it even special? if i am "1 in a million" that means there are 3,000 of me in this world at this very moment. no one is special. no one is unique.

do you know how far this has gone? just how damaged have I become? when I think I can overcome it runs even deeper.

on my way
and I can't turn back
I'm okay
I'm on track
lost my way
can't come back

a two people got shot on my street a few days ago.... both lived. so right now its me - 2 and the ghetto - 0.

all i can think is..... focus on my anger and not my pain.

what is living? as in, what is living ones life? i would think of biological living as fighting the forces that inevitably will lead to death. i think living, in general, is the same. i was thinking "i need to start living my life" but that doesn't sound right. to me, it seems like dying is the realization your body will not last forever. so the ( Read more... )

each person has a list of things they want in a life partner. some people know they have one and some don't. but this list is ordered by the priority of the item. several items on this list are implicit and of those items some are given a much higher priority than other list items that actually matter asfar as relationships go. but i think that for ( Read more... )

im not really sure what to say. everything happens for a reason? i used to think that but now im not so sure.

It’s somewhat funny how things end up working out in the end. All the "cool" people i went with to high school are almost all losers. Meanwhile, all the somewhat unknown majority of my graduating class has gone on to turn into really interesting people. Almost all the girls have become more attractive too. This make we wonder how stuff is going to ( Read more... )