i don't think love exists anymore. at least not in the way that most people traditionally think of it.

anyway, RELOAD

nothing ever works out for me.

I just had a sudden twinge of unfathomable sadness and regret.

I have been wondering lately about all the things that make people the way they are, whether they are good people or bad people.

this is all stupid.

another party last night, im still dizzy.

but i was thinking, its really not as bad as all that.... people i mean.

Last night i went to a bar downtown with the old hillcrest crew. it was cool seeing all of them again. then i drank lots of green beer and danced with chads little sister a few times. after that we went to the BOB and met up with benny ( Read more... )

I'm moving. not sure where but i'm tired of this area.

i had a date with Meridith last night.

I haven't felt this way in a long time. it feels good.

and i think my ex finally had her kid but who the hell knows. i feel sorry for the poor bastard.

I went over to josh's tonight. I tried to get my buddy kal to come with me but hes still not over his ex and he just wants to mope. anyway, i went over there and drank for the first in quite a long while, around 2 years. I met a girl named meredith who was very cute and interested in what i had to say. and guess what, she smokes! but its just after ( Read more... )