So, where to even begin. Life's not been going so well. The job that I thought would be great, truthfully it sucked, and I was working 100 hours a week. Seriously, and thats not overexagerating anything. So I quit. I never quit at anything, I felt so awful about it, and they managed to make me feel even worse. But its been weeks now, so Im getting ( Read more... )

So. I graduated right...? I have a job. It's stressful as all hell though. I work far too much. Which when I think about it, its a good thing. It keeps me from having too much time to worry or think about other people and things. So much has happened recently. I went home last weekend. It was great but I wasnt there nearly long enough. Brendon and ( Read more... )

Your passing hold no interest ( Read more... )

2 days ago I walked across a stage and I didnt trip. I really didnt think i was... just a fact. I did it, I graduated college. That part of my life is all over. But it isnt real yet. I am still here. A lot of things have happened in the past week. Both good and bad. So here we go ( Read more... )

That's it I am done. With one paper and two optional exams left. Hmmm... it all seems so sureal. What do I do now?!? That's what i keep asking myself. but you know what... someone gave me a great answer the other day... What ever you want...! I liked that answer even though I really didnt like the person that was saying it at that time. But he ( Read more... )

You make me cry more than you make me smile... And I want you in my life, but everything you do pushes me away. You get mad when I say being your friend will never work, but this, this is why I wasn't able to be your friend. You hurt me, you make me cry, and you make me feel awful about myself. No one makes me feel as bad as you do. Why? Why should ( Read more... )

So a few things are ending ( Read more... )

I have deleted something. In reality it is not that important, but to me it is. I deleted Brendon. I even deleted myself out of his phone, i dont think he has figured it out yet though. So for anyone that reads my live journal. It's official about a week ago we ended it. And this time for good. And you know what, I was really sad, part of me is ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do any more. I am not happy with what I have right now, but I don't want to give up what I have either. And I really dont have anything. What I have is fake. It is this picture I put in my head of how things are, but in the real world, outside my head, they look nothing like it. I only have this picture so I may rationalize ( Read more... )

So it is spring break of my senior year in college, and I am doing nothing. No that's not true, nothing woulndt be so bad. I am working. I am working the entire spring break at Eaton front desk. Sounds like fun right. And while I am working Brendon is home, in Boston, doing what ever he wants. And I am sure he will do anyone he can too. I know ( Read more... )