This is the first entry in a while. I don't even think anyone reads my journal anymore but it doesn't matter. Anyways a lot of stuffs been goings on. I am now going to SUNY Orange with Alex...ya know OCCC. I decided to leave Purchase because I don't care much for the atmosphere but mostly because I was going home so often that I'm better off going ( Read more... )

Ok so I know I haven't updated this is like forever but now that it is not being used for little immature nobodies to come harass me I can have fun with it. Saturday is my birthday, I am gonna be 19...yes the BIG one nine. Oh yeah, who cares, it doesn't mean shit lol. well I have been with Alex now for 14 months...and will continue to be till the ( Read more... )

Summer is so much better than school. OMG i was ready to kill my teachers. anyways Now i work at the hotdog stand in the commons and get paid for doing positively nothing. AlleyBear and I are fine and we just passed our 7 months!!!!! This sara girl keeps calling his phone but I'll behead her soon. I'm dreading college but ya know what, its just one ( Read more... )

Yeah it will probably be really gay, but atleast Alex and i will be the cutest couple there. The best part is later when i get to prance around in my sexy panties and take it from him all night long lol.....jk...well maybe.

Last night was a very bad night. not just cause i could not sleep. Not just cause I was stuffed up and crying. But becuz my favorite hamster/friend, Sebastian, Died. He was quite old and i suppose i took very good care of him. he was so sweet and he never ever bit anybody. My other hamsters would pick on him and he would never fight back. he would ( Read more... )

I don't know how many of you readers know about my health problems. Well if any of you are ex boyfriends you would know how my miscellaneous pains torment me and ruin just about any chance of a perfect day. Alex is just so sweet and understanding. How? I don't know. I don't know how anyone could still be as gentle and loving as he is after days of ( Read more... )

I hate my Mother and Father, brother and Grandparents, peers and teachers, authoritarians. I just love Alex, thats it. Forever. I don't give a damn who says thats evil and sick, I probably hate you too and you can go to hell.

Eric and I were venturing out on the first warm day we've had in forever when we passed the under paid forgein workers by the side of the road holding the "go to K-Mart 60% of everything" signs. Being the cheap jews that we are, we decided hey why not. Well they didnt have what i was looking for there and we were about to leave when I spyed boxes ( Read more... )

So right now I am bleeding from cuts about my body. Just took my door down and put some holes in my wall. I wasn't getting my way and my father would just not shut the fuck up. Id rather bleed to death than let him think he is right or getting the last word. Its all their fault anyways. Everything seems so hard right now I look around and it just ( Read more... )

Being a senior has its ups and downs. Its nice having like 4 classes. And its nice knowing that you don't have to deal with the same crap next yr. But its kinda sad to see that everything you go thru everyday with people is for nothing. Your gonna leave and be surrounded by new people and new more adult drama. You don't get the comforts of home ( Read more... )