Ok, so Marcus and I broke up for two weeks before winter break because I didn't think I wanted a boyfriend anymore. I really thought it was over between us. I mean, we had broken up before but this time seemed different. I didn't want to get back together anytime soon. When break started, I knew we would get back together. I don't know if I wanted ( Read more... )

 "Won't Go Home Without You"

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not ( Read more... )

Ok. I'm not sure if writing this all out is going to help,but  it's worth a shot. Recently Marcus has mentioned HIS plans for after we both graduate. He wants me to move in with him while he goes to school in Texas or some other state, doesn't matter. This freaks me out a lot! I have thought about marriage and I've even pictured it a few times but ( Read more... )

so lets see i havent made a real update in awhile so here it goes... things have been going ok. ive sucked hard core in track this year but its all good i dont really like it anyway. ive been doing a lot better in school so kinda proud of that. last night was pretty bad though. josh cussed me out again. i dont even know why. i hate it so much. i ( Read more... )

Spend all your time waiting ( Read more... )

Everyone is changing so fast. And you dont even notice, until its too late. All of my friends are growing up in front of me. But im not with all of them all the time. I will just have to trust that they make the right decisions and we grow together not apart.

love yourself first and most
ignore those who try to discourage you
enjoy life today, yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come

I've got someone who loves me more than words can say
And I'm thankful for that each and every day
And if I count all my blessings, I get a smile on my face
Still it's hard to find faith

But if you can look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
You just might make me believe

the thing people dont understand about love is that its an action. you dont just fall in love and then fall out of love. you have to work at it. it takes communication and trust.

pain cuts deep ( Read more... )