God, I hate being single! As much as I hate guys: their indecisiveness (ahem, "You decide"), their cheesey romantic lines, and the way they make you fall weak to your knees screaming, "I love you, dammit!" I hate being single even more. It sucks feeling like no one really cares about you. Sure, my mom or roommate will ask how my day went, but they ( Read more... )

I thought moving to Frederiksen Court would make things better, that I wouldn't have memories of Trevor surrounding me anymore. I was wrong. Feelings of missing him have come rushing back like the day we broke up. I just keep wishing he were here and could see my new place. The last thing he said to me keeps ringing in my ears over and over again ( Read more... )

On Friday my supervisor was gone so it was just Grant and me. He was pushing back the tables and asked me to divide everyone into teams. It was the first time I actually got to talk to the kids by myself. It sounds weird and kind of stupid, but I felt this rush. I got them to quiet down and they listened to me. It has to be one of the best feelings ( Read more... )

Ok, so I should be studying for my finals tomorrow, but I'd rather write in this stupid journal. I've finished It's Called a Breakup Because it's Broken already. I'm sad I'm done reading it. It was a good book and made me think about a lot of things. Though sometimes points made in the book were obvious, it was still funny and cheered me up. I have ( Read more... )

For once, I'm posting because I'm happy and not depressed or sad, which were my moods in my previous entries, I think. This weekend was so much fun. I got drunk both nights, but didn't have hangovers in the morning and I didn't throw up! I'm proud of myself. Haha, but seriously it's good I was able to stop before getting wasted. My counselor and I ( Read more... )

Today was a good day... my last counseling appointment and I didn't cry once. The rest of the healing will just take time.

I used to dread Sundays simply because I had to wake up early and go to church. Now, I really hate Sundays because I'm reminded of when Trevor and I broke up. Some are better than others, but today was miserable. I held back so many tears at work. I still don't know why it's taking so long to get over a stupid boy. I didn't need him before we met  ( Read more... )

I am at an all time low. The more I try to not think about Trevor, the more I can't get my mind off him. If this is what I have to look forward to for the next six months then I don't know what the hell will stop me from committing suicide. How has Marcus been so strong through our break up? It just feels like there will never be anyone better. At ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been forever and a day since I last made a post. I don't know why I suddenly want to write again. I guess I figure if I find this when I'm fourty, I don't want to my last few entries to be as depressing as they are. And I may not remember this relationship I'm in right now.... scratch that, I won't forget.

Trevor McGraw. Whether he ( Read more... )

This song is extremely short. I wish it were longer, but it still describes exactly how I feel.

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cause I love the way you ( Read more... )