reading this journal made me kind of sound desparate. no more. i swear.

sam, i wish i was a better boyfriend to you. i wish i did all the little things you like. i wish i was with you forever and ever babe. i read your journal and the makeme happy. they really do. i wish i didn't suck as your boyfriend. i feel empty inside. i still can't eat. i miss you. i hate everyone ( Read more... )

yesterday was the first time i was happy in a long time. i was with sam. she makes me so happy and knowing i can't be with her again suck. she doesn't want to. galvan is lucky she's talking to him. right now i wish i was him. i really do. i still love her. :( . she doesn't even call me anymore. and when she texts me she just tells me something like ( Read more... )

Today i went to go pray that everything turns out better. I still prayed for sam and i to be together in the futur. I feel like my life is incomplete without her. i know it sounds too whatever, but it's true. i'm empty. And all i have in my head is her and alex together ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i have been on this thing. My whole week as well as my life starting right now sucks. I remember the day when my girlfriend and i were just perfect. Well not anymore. everything has just gone wrong. 2 days after we like break up on of my friends tries to go after her and succeeds. she now likes him, so they like ( Read more... )

God! today was not cool. I felt so sleepy and now i have to do community service in the street. So i have to wear those stupid jacket/vest. i hate today! i'm going to kill myself....:( ....i don't like my fingers anymore either. i don't know....i don't feel good right now....not one bit ( Read more... )

What's going to happen? God, i really hate when things aren't right. I don't feel right. I can't even type. Too many things are running through my head. I can't say i hate my life. I love it for i have Sam. But sometimes i think she's mad or sad and he face expressions make me think she's never happy with me. This whole Thomas thing is pissing me ( Read more... )

It's been so boring. I haven't done anything. There's no one to chill with, I hate it. Well i've been hearing Damien Rice alot and The Good Life. I miss Sam. My neck hurts really bad, really really bad. I guess the only cool thing I'm going to do is go to the Emery concert on Valentines Day. Yup. I LOVE YOU SAM ( Read more... )

I really love Sam. I really want to be with her; well, I am with her but i want to be with her. I really hope we last, and last, and last. She's perfect and I love her. She can get jealous once in a while, but I know she knows she's my only one and that i will never cheat on her or fall for someone else. I Love Her...

Nothing unusual, nothing strange ( Read more... )