Today is mother's day.  the most important lesson my mother ever taught me was that marriage is a sacred vow, to be kept and cherished and honored.  i have watched her go through hell with my father, and i have seen him do the same.  yet through it all, they kept their vow, they stayed together, they never cheated.  i would be honored to have that ( Read more... )

some people's doctors are so STUPID. i wish everyone had a great doctor for their BPD like I do.

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is it possible that you don't feel this anguish in your soul? is it possible that your body does not cry out for me as mine does for you? how can you be silent, when i am falling at your feet, begging to hear your voice ( Read more... )

of my journal.

brand new page by sierra !!


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he says to forget trying to figure everything out. he says as long as i'm sober today, i AM figuring it out. i'm doing it right as long as i'm not using. he says a lot of things that make sense.

and then he says i love you... and i forget all those things he just told me.
i'm a fool for you.

someone greatly impacted me today. they said they hated to write love on her arms, and stated their various reasons. i agreed on the good majority of it. but what most impacted me was that they said people join organizations like twloha and ignore the depression and suffering of the people around them. i pray that i will never again be guilty of ( Read more... )

it's about time to break out those pilates videos. i will not leave this winter looking like a cow. new year's resolution: fit into the skinny jeans i bought this fall ( Read more... )

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one day soon i will have a tattoo on the palm of my hand.

i'm so in love with Him.