So I sit here waiting. Waiting for what, I don't know. My love isn't enough. It never is it seems. I have all these chances that I use to want, but they all fail to entice me anymore. Except for you. I feel like I'm losing it. I know I said it when we together, but oh how I mean it. I need you. Just you. I'd give up everything just to be ( Read more... )

Well, I became for lack of a better word, single, today. I had hoped to not be single any more, but with no luck. I sure wish I had some. I hate being, as she would say, emo about things. But everyone is really. Everyone has their moments. I have mine. This is one of them ( Read more... )

I've felt kinda lonely this past week or two. Not in a self-loathing kind of way, just lonely. It just doesn't seem to work out ever and it sucks. If I could, I'd spend everyday with her. I use to and that was great. But now, it seems as if there's never anytime for us. It's always hi then bye, except there were a few doays were there was ( Read more... )

I get to spend X-mas morning alone now and that makes me sad. I was going to spend it with Danielle's family but not anymore. It's CHRISTMAS! Come on! The thing that erks me the most is that I have her presents here and I wanted to watch her open them on X-mas morning. I'll think of something. I always do.

Today is the day I meet the Family!

NO BABY! Kinda sad but relieved too. Oh well!

Well, It sucks. This feeling of regijtion. TIME. Not for me? What is that? It's pain in words. It hurts to hear it and I'd hate for it to be real. I'd give anything. I would stand out in the cold for any amount of hours to prove whatever is needed to be proved. I'll show them that I'm not just all talk. That I can do it. That I will be ( Read more... )

It's like a wave of happiness that keeps hitting me. Pushing my lips into a smile and sending me floating along. "How'd I get so lucky?" Well, I got lucky cause I got her and that's all that matters to me now. With all our tiffs, which are few, nothing brings me down(well, that one did). But life is as it should be. No more smoking, drinking ( Read more... )

Taking a bath with the one you love is sooo much fun! It's so relaxing. I can't wait to live with her and take showers with her every day!!!

PS. And smack her around when she gets out of line and doesn't give me sex!!!

I'm ready for this. I'm done searching. I'm done worrying about being alone. I've found what I'm looking for, what I need. She said the same and now I can breath easy. I know that no matter what happens in my life, she'll be there. And I will always be here for her. There is no more me, just us. I want to take her on a trip somewhere, but I ( Read more... )

I hate these feelings of doubt. They're tearing me apart. I can't eat and I can't sleep. I feel sick all the time and it sucks. But to clear it up, to bring it all to light, might incur her wrath! That is not something I want to deal with. How does one continue on, when the one thing they thought they knew, turns out to be an even bigger ( Read more... )