So, he's done it. He's gone through with it. But he failed. I can't belive it. I mean- I knew this was going to happen. He's in the hospital. And theres no turning back. I hope he's happy. And I'm almost positive he is. But dissapointed. I just called him. Going to Ruth Cooper, I belive. I have to go, this has all been a little too hard on me.

Suicide is the new black.

Theres only one thing to say now
and thats
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY FRIENDS?"
Someone pleaes tell me, what the hell!

Today's the day my dad died. It's been 7 years- 7 really, really hard years. I'm still going on. I talked to Jordan today. He said he's going to call me tonight...I wonder if that's going to happen- he didn't even call me when we were going out. Well, we'll find out. And I really hate myself for saying this, AND doing this. And its the whole Kevin ( Read more... )

boo!

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I'm fine. I'm happy. I'm content. My mom and I talked. When shes in a good mood I really love her. We talked about Jordan, about sex, about life, everything. It was great. The only thing I ate all day (up until supper) was a half of bagel at 4 in the morning which my mom forced me to eat, and an almond joy. I just wasnt hungry. I gatta go take a ( Read more... )

I'm sick and tired of peoples bull shit! people make mistakes!! cant we forgive and forget??? no... becuse then we'll always have that thought in the back of our head... FUCK! I'm so confused! why cant people be nice... not symathetic.. nice!? I don't know what to do? What am I supposed to do? I can't think of anything to do. Ya know my mom was ( Read more... )

I've been hurt. Many times. But this time... probably the worst. And it was by myself. I attached myself to someone.. and now they've been ripped away. I know no one ever reads my journal, thats why I feel safe writing in it, because the only people who do really care about me, and they'll understand and help me ( Read more... )

HOLY HELL!!! Tina's car is the shit! We painted it today, well... we painted from like 6:30 - 8:00.... that was some fun shit!! ohk yea, Ima going to bed... I'll write tomorrow.
But apparently I passed out like 7 times and had 3 seziurs... haha thats funny
later

Ohk yea, me n Jordon are going out now. So is Tina and Sam. yay!! lol
I think I'm falling in love with him.
yahoo..
im bored
tinas drugged
and eating ice cream
without me
later