ohio is for lovers.

learning how to love myself some more and again while im here.

i dont like how people are constantly tested in the strangest ways. how life works with so many unexpected twists and turns and bumps and bruises. and scars. I know lessons are learned from everything we do and say but ( Read more... )

i was sitting alone in billys hot tub last night in the little lounge chair that leans out perfectly to view the stars and i was happy. i picked out my own star and got lost in it. the sky cleared up for me alone. i told my dad yesterday that i was proud of how our relationship has evolved over the past few years and was thankful for second chances ( Read more... )

i feel like i have done more in the past week then i have in months ( Read more... )

i wish there was a way to make a year full of new memories instantly.
im doing everything i can. and i feel like a billion relationships have ended lately but i feel so alone in this. they all got answers and explained reasons. i get "i dont know".

thats not good enough for me.

nothing really is right now.

i always write my entries lyrically or in some odd poem because i can hde behind it. Its so hard for me to write straight up when im hurt because its like i have to actually accept the fact that the events in my life are factual ( Read more... )

ive never felt so alone in my entire life. no matter who im around. talking to or with. i just dont even want to be there

or it happened again? fuck this week

its so confusing to do a 180 with your emotions. i took time out for myself to realize what went wrong, try and accept it, and then being the same person Dave did the same thing. I just wish he knew it was okay to be scared instead of getting scared and breaking my heart. i want to trust him and i know i will but its so much easier when people talk ( Read more... )

he came to my house and ripped my heart out of my chest ( Read more... )