It's been a while since i've discussed anything and i've realized since my last entry that i've figured out quite a bit. I have not abandoned my family...I am currently in my shitty home town of St. Petersburg, where my insanity steadily progresses on the day to day, but this is where my solid connections are. I've been here since the end of June ( Read more... )

Grrrr. I fucking hate everything. At this point i really hate myself. I wrote it better but this fucking journal put in an earlier draft...which was like one line. Grrr. Anyway...I've wasted 5, almost 6 years of my life and i can't trust myself. My judgement is horrible. I'm weak and a bit pathetic and i'm begining to wonder if i'll ever do any of ( Read more... )

Things are well in Vermont, although i'm unaccustomed to such cold weather. And i've already gone through 2 days of slushy snow and rain. I became ill for a short amount of time after having to walk through snow and ice for a while...but i'm starting too feel better already after 3 days, which is good. I haven't been writing as much which kind of ( Read more... )

I don't know why, but all you folks in st.pete seem to think that me being homeless in vermont is way different that being homeless in St.Pete. Just for the record i have friends here as well and i've only slept in an alley TWICE since i've been here and i've been here almost a month. Every other time i've had a house of some kind to sleep in. ( Read more... )

A quiet breeze soothes the sting of 10,000 pricks perfectly aligned against my flesh ( Read more... )

I'm in legal trouble now...counseling in the future, all because of the crooked springfield vermont cops. If only they knew i've been an alcoholic, and that 3 beers and some wine consumed by an 18year old is nothing compared to handles of vodka consumed by myself as a 13 year old. Plus their procedures were half assed backwards...I've never been in ( Read more... )

WOULD YOU RATHER ( Read more... )

save this wretched day,
keep its shards close to my chest,
find a misplaced stone to stumble from the crack,
no one shows us pity
emotions out the door.
we've melted all these citites
and burned our feet with gold
there's nothing more lovely then this smog in my lungs
almost feel free
almost can see...

Today is the day of emptiness ( Read more... )

WOULD YOU RATHER ( Read more... )