This hurts. It's overwhelming. My chest is frozen with pain. There were no signs. I didnt think it was even close. How? After almost three years can it all just be shut off. How can it be so easy for him when I feel unable to breath. My head hurts from the tears. I wish I could go back to a few days ago. When nothing hurt this much. When everything ( Read more... )

when you have written a lot about a certain person in your old entries its not i good idea to go back and read them if you dont even talk to the person anymore. it brings up too many memories and too many things you would rather not think about. its funny how one moment you think you are okay and the next you feel all hurt again. at least it ( Read more... )

ok so for all of my friends who actually read this i guess i should make an update...hmm what dont some of you know? well im working again. im back at target. it kind if feels like a step back, but at least im doing more than just filling out job applacations. im very slowly but surley diiging myself out of my financial hole. again the emphasis is ( Read more... )

i've noticed that even though i rarely ever post on livejournal i like the strangers here more than on myspace. i belog to the freewriters community here and the response i get back from people who like what i have to say is so much better than anything i have ever posted in a myspace forum. i even think more strangers tend to read what i post here ( Read more... )

Rules:
- Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
- Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
- Post them here for everyone to guess.
- Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
- NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions

1. "My name's not fuckin Warren!"  Empire Records
2."Don't tell me. You're a French aristocrat, she's a simple girl of the people, and ( Read more... )

you know what sucks, when coworkers go through your desk when your not there, and then there is really nothing you can do about it because that said coworker is your bosses favorite. i need to find a new job.

i have already eaten too much chocolate, cookies, and other sweets today. vendors always send us christmas sweets, and i am so full. got to love the holiday season.

last night was fun. i went to the cha with mark and ghoti (fish).  it was actually pretty busy for a wednseday night but it was a bunch of people i knew. we weren't planning to but we closed out the bar. and then went to dennys. i don't know why i think its a good idea to not get home till 3:30 on a day i have to be at work at 8 but i do it all the ( Read more... )

i really need to not drink so much in a work night but its easier to drink more when people by you drinks.
by the way janette i taught mark, shannon, and laisha the circle of death last night. it was very much enjoyed. oh my god the rules that were made up. it was fun. i got to play that with you again.

i need to be careful though cause i think i'm ( Read more... )

i'm in a good mood. a really good mood and that is odd becaue i am still at work. today has gone rather quickly, which is always good. i have also gotten a lot of stuff done that i needed to do, i really am all caught up and that is certainly a weight off of my sholders. plus i get to see mark as soon as i get off work. its only for a little while ( Read more... )