Okay, so I had a shitty night tonight. I'm going to list off everything I don't like about myself, then see if I can find a way to fix them.

My Insecurities-Overweight ( Read more... )

It's been quite a stressful couple of days. Emotionally, anyway. I come to realize that I lost a decent amount of weight, yet I'm living off junk food because we never have a bulk amount of money to just go to a grocery store every so often, or whenever I suggest living cheap till I find work so we'll have more saved (IE: 99c Store, Ramen, etc), no ( Read more... )

So I decided to close my myspace for good ( Read more... )

Aiight, so I was kickin it alone again today, and I come up with an idea. See, I've never had true closure with my real father, and I feel like I should find a way to tell him my last words without having to deal with his shit, let alone look at him. So I was thinking of recording a song and sending it to him ( Read more... )

So today I've come to realize I really have no business at this point in time to be searching for a relationship. I mean look at me. I'm overweight, I live with my mom, I don't have a car, and I don't even have a job right now. I've got nothing to show for how far I've come from ( Read more... )

So I haven't listened to AFI in quite a while, and if you know me well enough, you know AFI is one of my all-time favorite bands, if not at the top of my list. But listening to the tracks on the DecemberUnderground album, I came to realize that EVERY SINGLE SONG brings back a memory of 2006. Some good, some bad. But overall, it's the one cd that ( Read more... )

Humans. Does anyone else besides ME find them completely ridiculous? I mean, we fight, we cry, we murder, we backstab, we love, we hate, we hold grudges, and we never forget. We're quite possibly the most unpredictable hostile creatures to ever walk the earth ( Read more... )

God now i'm fucking confused. The days draw nearer, and i'll admit, I've thought long and hard about this and i'm certain i'd do better in the bay.

But do i wanna take the easy way out without giving this place another shot?

I dunno, but maybe everyone was right. I'm running from my problems.

So I work at Taco Bell now. 7.50, but I get about 32-40 hours weekly. Sweet gig ( Read more... )

So the drastic lifestyle change from "Hyphy Yay Area" to "Kickback Redding" has been an extreme one. I'm not used to not being afraid of alot of things. I mean, people leave their housedoors and car doors unlocked, windows rolled down, and know no one is going to fuck with their stuff. People ask for cigarettes, and if you say you don't have any, ( Read more... )