i leave for california on thursday(31st) and will return on the 4th, monday. THEN i leave for pensacola on the 7th and will return on the 11th. and on the 13 i leave for new orleans where ill stay for the night and leave on the 14th for south carolina(bootcamp). from the 7th thru the 11th while im in pensacola if any one would like to hang out... ( Read more... )

im excited about basic...but scared to death. i still dont know if i made the right decision. taking a poll here....do you think i made the right decision? knowing how my life was going and the bad decisions i have made.

i leave for basic spetember 14th

yup...i did it...i joined. it becomes complete this coming thursday. im scared but excited. fearful but hopeful. i think ill be okay.

is this all just a dream....i just cant wake from?

this is how i feel


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where is home?

i dont know anymore.

who are my friends?

i dont know anymore.

i miss the 850.

i've been tihnking. i fake it a lot, being happy. i fake that i dont feel. i fake that it doesn't hurt. i've been faking it so much lately. so much i don't really know who or what i really am. do you think im fake? and how can i change that?

today was my first day at starbucks. it went over pretty good. it was full of a whole lot of boring training shit and a whole lot of coffee. i barfed when i got home, i think they try too push their coffee on to "partners", aka emplyees, tooo much. within my first 90 days i am required to test EVERY single different kind of coffee they sell and ( Read more... )

i cry myself to sleep. i cry while in the car. i cry while eating. and you dont even miss me. do you ( Read more... )