.....its all over.

i really fucked up...again ( Read more... )

...then why the hell are you so sad?

so true, so true.

since out of rehab, i've heard that a lot of people i was in there with have relapsed. its sad. but i can't help but be proud of myself.

lifes too short. dont fuck it up.

sitting here staring at a martini shaped picture holder and wondering where i went wrong.

i thought i was happy, the way i used to be.
but i wasn't, could have fooled me? no, couldn't have.

you were just a delusion, get over it.

There is beer in our frig, i dont have the urge to drink it but i keep tihnking about it just sitting there. ugh, im going crazy, i know i am, this is how it feels to go crazy. wow...i tihnk im really going off the deep end here. i just want to smash it, smash it for ruining my life. i now have no money to my name, none! zero! zip! and i know if i ( Read more... )

so lately, i've been in my head more then i should be. eating up thoughts of addiction. this is so hard. being clean. but im doing it and many of you thought i wouldn't. so...ha. in yo face ( Read more... )

so, i cam home on the 15th, which, yes it was early, but i did complete the program, so dont worry. im here in LA now. my new home, it'll take a little time to get used to, but im going to meetings everyday. i have a new cell, if you want the number just email me and ill email you back. Becca_luv7@hotmail.com

i leave in 15 mins for the airport. im sitting in my old house for one last time. when i get back no one will live here anymore. life is changing so fast. it' hard. i'll miss you all. goodbye livejournal, hello rehab.

okay, so a little bit more of an update, like you care. but i'll share anyways. My rehab is 63 days in the hospital and 90 days in a halfway house. so i won't be home for a little while.