It's been a good day... food went good, exercise too... 'till 30mins. ago, when I decided I had to eat... a huge amount of ice- cream and muffin and stuff... of course I couldn't let it stay in my stomache ( Read more... )

I'm in a pretty strange state of mind. Nothing really bothers me. It's like nothing really gets through. Like I was floating somewhere in space, not able to move in my spacesuite, no air, just people knocking at my helmet, talking to me. I can see it and hear it very silently, but I don't understand a single word ( Read more... )

After a week without purging, I did it again yesterday. and today...

My mom told me that Vivi is in LSF again bc of her bulimia. I feel so bad for her. I thought about her so often lately. I wanted to call her... no, it's so awful... WHYWHYWHYWHY? I really thought she was better...

My legs hurt so much... 3/4h aerobic, ballet(barre, center), pointe, flamenco... I'm tired, but I feel good bc I finally did something for my body again... and I dance... dance, dance... *lol ( Read more... )

I am 33% Goth.

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First day of ballet- workshop: 2h ballet, 1/4h break, 1/2 hour stretching and muscle exercise, 1/4 watching a ballet video, 1h Flamenco. SO much fun... Anna- Maria lost weight, she looks stunning, you cannot imagine how good she looks *want2* I am fat, nothing new... wanna be 52 again... *duh* Anyway, I'm happy to be back ( Read more... )

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My hair is red now... it lookes pretty good. I was so sure it would look fucked up... but it doesn't *surprise* The contrast of my blue eyes and the red is cool. I might take some pictures today ( Read more... )

I wrote a mail. I don't even know if he'll get it bc of some stupid adress- trouble... but I did it...

STUPID...

called Madame Benedek yesterday... nice...

went out to have some sushi with Anzo, than had some drins with Eve, Pia, friends of her and Anzo...

I know, my life isn't interesting at all


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I'm back ( Read more... )