I'm buying thisCan u imagine? Being able to bring your scale with you EVERYWHERE? And weigh yourself ANYWHERE? ANYTIME?? Imagine the possibilities... Always knowing the consistent number instead of using the bathroom scale which says one thing, then the gym scale which says another thing, then the doctors scale, which says something different?? ( Read more... )

I fucking hate this holiday. I guess it's because a) I don't really have any family anymore and b) all of the feelings surrounding food are pretty intense and c) I'm acting on behaviors left and right. Being around "family" (if that's what you can call these people who hate me) and food at the same time is very stressful. Especially so much damn ( Read more... )

Fuck Thanksgiving and fuck everyone's fucking cheery happiness and fuck life.

Pages and pages of love. in-fucking-credible

I went to NYU for undergrad. I had an apartment. I had lots of cool friends. I met a boy. I had money and a waitressing job at an upscale restaurant and i had an eating disorder. I loved it. All of it.

Now, I'm fat and stupid and a dropout and everyone who used to like me hates me and everyone who meets me hates me and I fucking hate myself.

fucking hurricane ( Read more... )

Days like today are when I miss Ana the most. Cold ( Read more... )

Do I want to get better?

No.

I was going to write apology letters to each of the following people ( Read more... )

I cut myself. I barfed a lot. I ate too much and didn't get it all up.

Cw 147lbs

I hate myself and want to die.

And YOU, YES YOU! I hate YOU! You know who u are. Fuck u.