my life is a rollercoaster. my mood changes every four seconds, usually depending upon mel's attitude. moms sick, my job is a joke, dont have any friends of my own. cant communicate with the "friends" that i do have for fear of making him jealous. i'm never ever ever going to be truly happy. it is an impossibility.

i just havent seen any point to update anything. i guess ive been a bit reclusive. i just work and sleep at my boys house. that is my life. wake up, shower, drive to work, work, drive from work, go to the boys house, snuggle, sleep, rinse, repeat. i have to fight with fafsa to get money for school, and i have no energy to do that. i want to go back ( Read more... )

why is it so much fun to ruin your life?

well a little update, i am now enrolled in edison again, i am going to continue with my prevet. i have two classes this summer and eleven after that. i am so excited. i am going to be so busy. maybe it will keep me from spending money, somehow i got ahold of my credit card (oops) and boy did i miss using them. oh well time to get ready to go out ( Read more... )

how exactly do you write a "i think you may be my father" letter? is there an etiquette for this sort of thing? "hey you had sex with my mother about 22 years ago and you knocked her up and ran away, wanna be friends?" i dont think thats quite appropriate for this situation. i was in the shower and thinking about it and i had the perfect letter all ( Read more... )

however lame lakeland may be it is still better than fort myers.

only 22 credits to go and im through with school.

i think in about two months or so i may end up moving back to lakeland. the rent in this town is atrocious. i can get a place in carlton arms for like 450 a month, for the same thing here they want at least 600-675. "f" fort myers, i've only got technically four more cc's to pay off. i just straightened out my "mallards mess". so after april i ( Read more... )

i found a gray hair. i named it mom. her surgery is next tuesday, to davenport i go.

goin to lakeland!