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oh, livejournal!
well, i havent been on here in a long long while. my last post was more that 100 weeks ago. wow. i just watched a girly movie now i feel needy, and much less like the cold hearted bitch i have had to be lately.
i just miss having the friend i can talk to anything about. . . . . -
a good couple of days
i don't often get to really enjoy myself. usually i'm just doing what everyone decides to do or just really lame crap that we always do, but recently mike and i had a couple of really good days. none of it went to plan, but we talked a lot, did some random stuff, and had a good time ( Read more... ) -
nothing's exciting anymore
the other night i was thinking about things we used to do. we used to have fun, meet new people, do silly things, and maybe get into a little trouble. these past several months have been nothing but disappointing ( Read more... ) -
a better place
yeah, one of my best friends has basically displayed that our friendship means jack to him, but i'm getting over it ( Read more... ) -
a weird place
i don't understand what is going on in my life ( Read more... ) -
a tough decision
i finally decided that this mike thing isn't working. he is constantly letting me down and carelessly hurting my feelings. i dont think he does it on purpose, but i'm tired of playing this game. i told him that he wasn't ready for anything with me. he's in a place where he cant give me what i need from him. i said that i deserve much better than ( Read more... ) -
nothing to say anymore
my situation is so stupid. i have feelings pulling me in so many directions. but no one i care for returns it. at least not in the same way. i find myself dreading going to bed because i dont want to go to sleep alone ( Read more... ) -
yet another horrendous valentines day!
i've only ever had one nice v-day, thanx to one special person of my past ( Read more... ) -
thbthbthbthb-(takes in deep breath)-thbthbthbthbthbthb!
life is retaaaaaded(boston accent). mike doesn't make any sense. if he's happy to see me, then wouldn't you think that he would want to see me more. i.e. keeping plans with me sometimes ( Read more... ) -
only 5 minutes of happiness
last year i was afraid of being vulnerabe and getting hurt, so i didn't get us into a relationship because i wasn't ready. now i am ready. we are together and would be very happy if not for mikes issues ( Read more... )