I have the best group of bros in the world. Chris' celebration of birth last night was fantastic. I am still full from the pizza.....and my legs hurt from bare foot boxer racing with dave.....(it was so cold ( Read more... )

Each day it gets harder and harder, and each day I get more and more miserable. But who cares? as long as everyone else is happy, I'll play along. I miss her so god damn much.

It's getting to0 hard to just smile through the pain right now. I'm hiding feelings that that are ripping me apart, just so people wont accuse me of being an emo bitch, or a downer. I don't think anyone undestands at all. Everyone only cares about how happy they are, and not about anyone else's cares. Heaven forbid someone should be down, and ( Read more... )

I miss her, more then anyone knows...

I can't express the show that Saves The Day put on yesterday. There were about 100 people there to watch their acoustic set. Chris was truly amazing. It was like my own personal show, and Dave, Trish, Stina and nunezra were all there with me belting every single lyric to every single song. It was amazing amazing amazing. I can now die happy. I was ( Read more... )

So, two days removed from the biggest shake up in friend history, I've had some time to reflect. I am really hurt. But you know what, that's not what concerns me the most. What troubles me more then anything, is one of my best friends is hurt far more then I am. I don't think anyone will ever understand what we are going through right now. Everyone ( Read more... )

Welcome to the world of deception, where your best friends use you to get drunk and get famous, and then leave you without so much as feeling of hope or happiness. Yes, welcome to a world where friends do anything to get famous, whether it hurts other people or not. Welcome to the world of living a lie for months, and working your ass off for a ( Read more... )

The more and more I come to realize and understand the person I am, and the person I am becoming....the more I realize how completely neurotic and incomprehensible I can be. I worry about everything, and find solace in the feeling of complete stress. Everything bothers me, everything gets to me, and everything worries me terribly. This is by no ( Read more... )