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Thinking
As I get bored with everything around me, my 'wants' grow. Thinking about it yesterday, I decided that education should still be my number one priority especially since it can serve me better in the long run.
As I try to pry myself away from useless material fripperies, I realised that the only thing worth it to be rich in is my spiritual life.
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Useless
It's the time of the year again. A time I never got to share with that special someone. The problem lies with me, I know. It's the hardest to move on and sometimes I feel so useless because I know it is crazy. But I am helpless to help myself.
Sometimes, the missing drives me crazy. I admit that I am stuck and nobody can save me out.
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Back on my Feet
Back on my feet.
I know what I have to do now.
It may seem crazy or stupid or unrealistic, but it is what I should do.
There's no point to prove.
Nor should there be any expectations.
It is there because it is.
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Love
How do we show love and patience when it can be the most difficult thing to do in some situations? When, we ourselves are so overwhelmed by life and its worries?
God help me find Grace in this sea of negativity. Teach me to be the person You want me to be.
Love is an attitude, love is a prayer,
For someone in sorrow, a heart in despair;
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I Need To Go Away
Still a little lost, more than a bit confused. Far from an emotional wreck but dying to let it all out anyways. Somebody teach me how to cut loose and drift away even when a part of me is fighting to cling on. Reality sucks ass.
I need to go away.
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Self Sabotage
Loving without expecting anything in return, helping without expecting anything in return.
Foolish?
I think so.
After God's own heart?
I think so too.
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Coward
I'm a coward. I can't seem to face up to my deepest, darkest fears. And from that fear pops a fantasy that I am clinging on to with dear life to come true. At the same time, i am ravaged with more fear that it won't come true.
Fear is my allie and my foe.
Here's what I am reading now:
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Sanity
Things are heating up at work! I'll take it in my stride but I have to say that I hate competition even though I understand it will do me good.
The Boss is showing favouritism ..garrrr.. but our work speaks for itself. I'm great at most areas, I just have to brush up on certain rusty skills and focus more attention.
*Hates*
>_<
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Another Phase
Another phase of my life is beginning. It's a scary yet thrilling feeling...and there will be a price to pay. I've decided to move out and live with friends. We're getting a place of our own. More responsibilities = more headache!
But it is part and parcel of growing up...
I wonder how I am going to cope when school starts next year. I'll have to ( Read more... ) -
Life and all its mysteries
I will lead my life the way I want it. The more people push me in a certain direction, the more I want to do things the way I see fit. When I was younger, it used to be this way because of my rebellious nature. Now, it's this way because I know what I want and I will strive to do as I deem appropriate.
After all, I am a firm believer in there is no ( Read more... )
