Hey, have i told you lately that i still adore you. Even from afar. Even never having had the privilege of meeting you in person and showing you that hot thing i do in bed hugging you.
You, without ever noticing or probably trying have touched a part of me that i hold dear. Even if i only talk to you once a year, know that you hold a place in me that no one ever has, nor will again.
You're a good kid, Kyleigh, and I was kind of nonplussed to not see you as much around here as what I used to. And then the friends cut scared the dickens out of me although I'm way too cool to acknowledge it..more than once, I mean.
I just figured, you probably wouldn't want some weird old guy from Missouri calling you up, potentially breaking up your current (and hopefully always) domestic tranquility, you know? Lord knows it's happened before, so I'm definitely trigger shy.
You, my dear, can call me any time you'd like. :) Assuming you still have the number, yes?
I'm sorry i have been absent as of late. Life is kinda in the way of my sittin' around time :) I still read and stuff, even if i don't comment as much anymore.
Never fear the LJ friends cut! YOU are always safe!
No, I definitely understand about that. So rarely anymore do I have the stickittoitness involved with posting and writing people back. It isn't like I'm oh-so-busy or anything but what I do have going on has a way of tuckering me out something fierce.
i wish i could grade my life with an a- or a b- or even a c. you should put this in your memories and look at it if you're feeling really bad, it's hard to remember stuff like this sometimes.
But that's a good idea..I probably should add this to memories, becuase you're right. That and the pot smoking really did a number on my short-term memory, back in the day.
you know my short-term memory has been awful, i know that it's not a coincidence. sometimes i seriously can't remember things people said to me the day before or people i've met a week before. do these things get better over time?
i don't think labelling it as an "incomplete" is such a bad thing, there's a lot i haven't done and have missed out on that i'm catching up on. maybe like, "complete this assignment and hand it in later" or something. :)
They do get better over time. A lot of propaganda says otherwise to try and scare people away from drugs, but I don't see how drugs ruin your brain more than anything else: alcohol, television, fast food, college. It's like a muscle, if you don't use it, you lose it.
You should have a morning ritual: a crossword puzzle to do, or sudoku. Do that every day and see your memory improve in 6 months. I shit you not.
I like your attitude towards all this, too..a lot of kids in their late '20s think their life is over when it's so absolutely not. It's only if they want it to be. Being responsible for one's own destiny I think is more scary to people than they wanna let on.
Thanks for the Joyce and Wilde quotes. And I agree, Joyce is a pain in the ass and I struggled with Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. The most accessible. I like pure and simple too.
You are not a pseudo-intellectual. Whoever called you that probably just did so because you drink coffee. :P
I hate that you have pain, but angst is where the best writing comes from. According to me anyway. Who the hell wants to hear about someone who's overjoyed to go be a robot everyday?
Somebody down there in your neck of the woods used to tell me, "Why do you have to write about sad stuff all the time? If you could take certain things that people love about your writing and turn them into something happy, you'd really be onto something."
She was right, and I knew she was right, but back in 2004 I wasn't quite sure how to do it. I wasn't even convinced it was possible. Now, in the autumn of my years I think I may very well be standing at the threshold of pulling it off. Maybe it was because back then I wasn't really happy, now I'm a lot closer to that. The migraines suck, but otherwise..
Yeah..but thanks for backing me up, JD. I'd like to gather up a posse and show James Joyce how we take care of things out here on the streets. :)
Well, I'll not try to inspire you with something weak like "the true mark of a great man is that his mistakes must also be great" however I do beleieve in embracing the mistake. I could be said to have a master's degree in making mistakes. I think I might even enjoy them
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You're probably like me, sometimes I know it's going to be a mistake but I still do it. While "crazy" is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results, I don't know what the deal is with that: maybe it's rebellion, or boredom, maybe it's just the nerve we have to do it because we damn well want to and no other explanation should be necessary
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It's funny, people used to criticize me for living in the moment too much, then I got responsible for a few years (read; boring and predicatable) and now I value the moment more than ever.
I know how you feel..people used to criticize me for living in the moment and now they criticize me for not living in the moment anymore. "Can't win for losin'," as the old saying goes..
There's no "pseudo" about it. You seem to take what is worthwhile to you from a given work, and leave the rest at that--that's something I often feel like my colleagues need to learn (and my students could teach it admirably).
"Intellectual" has become a bad word, but more than that, it's become a narrow word--this shouldn't be.
I agree with you about the word "intellectual"; it's become so narrow that I don't think anybody even knows what one is anymore. Is it someone like Noam Chomsky? Is it anybody who has a degree? Likes to read? I think that once upon a time it was easier to make these distinctions..all you had to do was watch for the brown tweed sport jacket with the patches sewn on the elbows and there you had it. :)
Me, I just like to read but I don't like being told to read something. It's just like being told to write something, it spoils it for me.
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You, without ever noticing or probably trying have touched a part of me that i hold dear. Even if i only talk to you once a year, know that you hold a place in me that no one ever has, nor will again.
It's in your spirit.
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I just figured, you probably wouldn't want some weird old guy from Missouri calling you up, potentially breaking up your current (and hopefully always) domestic tranquility, you know? Lord knows it's happened before, so I'm definitely trigger shy.
A hug sounds nice right about now, though. :(
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I'm sorry i have been absent as of late. Life is kinda in the way of my sittin' around time :) I still read and stuff, even if i don't comment as much anymore.
Never fear the LJ friends cut! YOU are always safe!
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And yes I still have the number. Thanks. :)
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Okay maybe that was wrong of me. :(
But that's a good idea..I probably should add this to memories, becuase you're right. That and the pot smoking really did a number on my short-term memory, back in the day.
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i don't think labelling it as an "incomplete" is such a bad thing, there's a lot i haven't done and have missed out on that i'm catching up on. maybe like, "complete this assignment and hand it in later" or something. :)
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You should have a morning ritual: a crossword puzzle to do, or sudoku. Do that every day and see your memory improve in 6 months. I shit you not.
I like your attitude towards all this, too..a lot of kids in their late '20s think their life is over when it's so absolutely not. It's only if they want it to be. Being responsible for one's own destiny I think is more scary to people than they wanna let on.
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You are not a pseudo-intellectual. Whoever called you that probably just did so because you drink coffee. :P
I hate that you have pain, but angst is where the best writing comes from. According to me anyway. Who the hell wants to hear about someone who's overjoyed to go be a robot everyday?
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She was right, and I knew she was right, but back in 2004 I wasn't quite sure how to do it. I wasn't even convinced it was possible. Now, in the autumn of my years I think I may very well be standing at the threshold of pulling it off. Maybe it was because back then I wasn't really happy, now I'm a lot closer to that. The migraines suck, but otherwise..
Yeah..but thanks for backing me up, JD. I'd like to gather up a posse and show James Joyce how we take care of things out here on the streets. :)
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"Intellectual" has become a bad word, but more than that, it's become a narrow word--this shouldn't be.
I'm sorry that you went through so much pain.
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Me, I just like to read but I don't like being told to read something. It's just like being told to write something, it spoils it for me.
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*proceeds to hide patched jackets*
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