#2-4 (beauty unparalleled)

[posteverything]

"the closest thing to heaven for a sinner: november's concrete grey and nicotine withdrawal"My new employer tells me secrets and in the back of my mind I wonder if he means them as some kind of test, just to see my reaction. I don't want to betray his trust so I'd never repeat them anyplace, and none of them are so terrible that I need to contact

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[cardiorrhexis]

i was just thinking the other day that you hadn't posted in awhile. thanks for giving me something incredible to read. this line especially:

that maybe I don't need that huge and bombastic love of my life after all because maybe that love is already there, inside of me

[posteverything]

You think so? I almost left that one out...when I re-read it something about that said "serial killer" to me for some reason.

Actually, I was thinking I kind of owed you an e-mail here pretty soon. One with the word "sorry" in it, somewhere...

[cardiorrhexis]

no i love it. i'm in a rut where it seems like the harder i try to make things work out with someone the more & more i fail miserably. i keep going in circles, and i just need to stop and be happy with myself first.

i'd love an email but it does not have to contain the word sorry in it :)

[posteverything]

Yeah, I do think that being happy with yourself is really key. That's not to say that long relationships can't happen where ultimately you love the person more than you love yourself (i.e.: my life from 1999-2003), but I've never seen it work out whether it be one of mine, or otherwise. But exactly how to achieve it I absolutely have no idea. I think I'm there. Couldn't tell you how it happened, but...

E-mail!

[stardonic]

you definitely deserve some good luck in your life. good for you

[posteverything]

Thanks, babe!

[spyrals]

nicely written. it's uplifting.

[posteverything]

Merci beaucoup! Which is French for "thank you." :)

And I like that picture/icon thing.

[andreamarie]

I love seeing that little bird on my friends page and knowing that I get to curl up in my computer chair and surround myself with Jay, if only for a few minutes.

[posteverything]

Geez, you kids are so nice around here. That's sweet of you to say, Andrea Marie. :)I know, I know, I keep meaning to write more often. But with the way things are going, out of every 5 entries I actually write, I'm only brave enough to post only 1.

[andreamarie]

Yeah, but your name is posteverything, not postonlyone. :)

I love you!

[posteverything]

I love you too!

You're right, I do believe I need to start living up to my name some more. I got a hell of a post comin' down the pike, which is about half done now...

[createdestiny]

Good to see you on my friends page.

[posteverything]

Thank you! Writing these posts is so fun, I don't know why I don't do it more often, like I used to...