I have been so confused as to why we have those plans. I have been ordered not to ask questions about it, though. months to come before I'll know a little of what I've been sticking my ear out for. I'll be losing sleep over it..over and over. We should talk so that strange times ahead may be planned.

A quick exit. Any day now. It's in my cards. All I have to do now is wait for it to happen, then act suprised.

"The saddest part of a broken heart isn't the ending, so much as the start."

Well....now I have to bust my ass to get TWO certain people back in my life instead of just one. This is stupid. This is a million different words for "unbelievably devastating". fuck this.

I'm so stressed out! This is all so complicated!! I have to get a job like...rigt now, which means that I won't really be able to leave edmonton, thus me not being able to see Marcel or any friends in Fort Mac. Also, In a tiny little while, I have to spend a week on a houseboat with my family. I don't want to do that at all. THEN in september, I ( Read more... )

Now I'll know for sure if it's true, or if I'm just being paranoid.

I will, inevitably, be alone forever! I have come to this conclusion by watching way too many awful television shows with sad, pessimistic people like me. You know what happens to bitter, selfish, sarcastically hateful people who talk about how much they don't care about finding someone to be in "itemhood" with, but in reality, they don't mind the ( Read more... )

Please don't find the bad things.- And ignore those small complications.
I'm going to fuck this up.
I'm such an idiot!

wow. I just spent an hour in the shower rocking out to the postal service. I could have just as easily spent 5 minutes washing my hair, and then gotten out. Instead, though, I sat down, and prolonged the act of shaving my legs. Did you hear that? I shaved my legs. Humanity is at a sheer end ( Read more... )

I'm letting it go! I'm letting it go. well- I'm trying. I really don't think it will work, but I quite obviously have to at least pretend that it worked. Either way, I think I'm going to get hit by a bus tomorrow. I can feel it. As of late, whenever I see a bus, I feel a great sense of....my own death. So, if I'm right and I do end up getting hit ( Read more... )