is it better to throw away your dream if you can be sure of it never becoming true?

or is a dream in general and in any way  worth being kept alive, if only for that tiny glimpse of hope so small that it can only be seen with the kaleidoscope eyes of a thirteen year old girl? and even if  keeping it alive is a slow kind of suicide?

ich bin so verwirrt und du verstehst mich einfach nicht.

vielleicht wollen wir eigentlich beide das gleiche, nur können wir es uns nicht eingestehen.

wir erinnern mich an lisa und jürgen. na wenn das nichts heißt. :/

i have rethought the marty felix thing. felix is out. i could change my mind again soon, but for now he's out. ;) fuck emoboys. blaahhahaha ( Read more... )

i loved loved loved today.

..even if i had to get up before 6, if simon was annoying as ever, and if we didn't get any more tickets for haldern (i have one anyway.. :P just none to sell now and simon doesn't have one) and if my mum freaked me out with the train connections back from moers.. things were very cool with my dad today though. i told ( Read more... )

my driving teacher told me i'd better get a medical certificate for tomorrow if i don't wanna do the practital exam a third time. ahh. fuckker. last night helmut and i saw hot hot heat. florian and his gang were there, not even hadil greeted me. today i met the other simon at uni. he was in time today. woot. he told me i am nerdy while we walked ( Read more... )

last friday i traded my body for simon's self-confidence.

wednesday i denied morgain's party.

today someone bought the new pope's old car for almost 190 000 euros.

and tomorrow i am going to queeze simon's hand real hard while getting my septum pierced.

i am so angry right now. i hate my driving instructor. i almost cried again today. why does he put me on the list for the practical test if he doesn't think i can make it? arrgh..! yes, i won't be making it tomorrow bc i was sick on saturday and thus we only had four more lessons.. (wouldn't that be enough? i mean i had something like 100-150 hours ( Read more... )

yesterdayshe dressed like a young lady ( Read more... )

BUT then i realize:

they can never give me what you gave me.

♥ ♥ ♥

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i had a big useless fight with my mom today. this is how it started: i stroke our cat, but the cat wanted to slap my hand after i wanted to stroke her once more and yeah, the cat didn't like that and i pulled my hand away so she wouldn't be able to hit me. somehow i hit two of my mothers vases, but i caught them before they fell onto the ground, ( Read more... )