I hate when I feel left out... But I guess it's my fault for being me...

I really thought I was a part of it, but I'm really not and I was a fool to believe...

On a happier note I'm writing Brookelynn a letter! Yay!

I realize Anna is leaving soon now. But I'm still not sad about it ( Read more... )

i've decided that talking about philosophy is a bad thing. especially with people who don't like what you have to say because they don't like you for some god-forsaken reason.

so from now on I will never talk about my personal philosophy in depth with people I don't know or who I dislike.

it isn't a big deal to me. but it makes me feel filthy. like i'm all alone and there is nothing i can do ( Read more... )

honest and open.

well, allan asked me to a movie which was supposed to happen months ago. jeremiah isn't happy that i'm going, he wants me to ask allan to invite someone else. jeremiah told me that a month or so ago he told allan to stop flirting with me so much, but that allan seems to be doing it more. i don't really notice, i figure that's just allan. anyway ( Read more... )

it really fucking pisses me off that i wasn't invited/informed about anna's going away party. i hate people ( Read more... )

i saw marty in his car as my mom and i were driving home from my second round of dress alterations. he looked very angry ( Read more... )

....... I wish I could feel worse about this, but I think of it in terms that people leave your life around this time. There's no point in crying, it won't make her stay. There's no point in feeling horrible, she's still alive... I'm just worried about when I get married I won't be able to find her to invite her... Ever since I started wanting ( Read more... )

is it normal to feel like this..? like you just want to die because you just suck that much ( Read more... )