Allan picked me up today. If it had been anyone else I wouldn't have let them. I feel so... I feel so safe in his arms, I didn't think he was going to drop me... It's the first time he's touched me. It made me feel so special... Even if he did it to Amari too ( Read more... )

I'm waiting for him to call me... He told me he would... I am waiting for his voice to slip into my tummy... I still like him, dispite everything he's done... I wish I didn't, but I still think about him all the time, he keeps me up in bed... I love kittens ( Read more... )

Well... We're almost done painting the attic... I'm really happy with how it's turning out ( Read more... )

I feel like shit. My heart hurts, I want this pain to go away. Why can't I just... Sigh... Why can't I just be what he wants and show him that that's what I am? Why can't anyone see that in me? I'm everything that nobody wants and I'm too afraid to admit it. Can't he see I want him? Can't he see that I'd do most anything for him? Why can't ( Read more... )

Why can't I be important to him?! Why can't I stop being so ashamed ( Read more... )

Anna came over today... I finished my art trade for Lizzy... I play tons of DDR on Heavy... Not like I got anything better than an E but, you know, at least I'm trying... And they were all 8 to 9 steps anyway... I can't do those... And we had a fun time on doubles too... I cleaned my room also ( Read more... )

That's nice... Real nice... Honestly I couldn't have done a better job myself...

Why did I lie to him?

It's a proven fact that both of my dogs can swim...

Happy 4th