Okay So I dont know what it is about driving to work and having the best music ever playing but it really puts you in a great mood. I was listening to 92.5 Nine FM We Play Anything station. It started out with a familiar John Mellancamp song- So already Much Love as I am driving away from the beautiful house where I am staying. Then follwd by a ( Read more... )

So here is the situation- I have alot of parties and obligations this weekend to friends serious ones like birthddays and going away parties- marianna mentioned she wanted to do something specail on Friday and I know she put thought into it but I hoped we would be able to everything but apperently she said no we will have to do it another time ( Read more... )

Jami and i went out last night another night at OC- Another night before she leaves to Florida- $80 dollars later and too drunk to drive- Prolly shouldnt have but Such is LIFE!!!

Okay so I am sitting at my work because I came back to bring the coffee maker and fan I bought at Linens and things- i also brought a Beer and a Hitter- So Here I sit sweating my ass off remebering the good old days last year when I would sit at my desk in the dorm by the window- Smoking hitters and drinking beer as fast as i could beacuse it was ( Read more... )

Well I was two hours late to work today but my boss is out of the country so I am really taking advantage of it. Marianna had the alarm set for 7:30 but I couldnt leave until 9:30. I kinda felt bad for being late but When I came in to work today and realized that noone had even left me any voicemails then I didnt feel that bad anymore plus it was ( Read more... )

Well another night at the spot this one turned ou to be different then i thought- i thought more drinking perhaps and less serious conversation but yet again Marianna must bring up the trust issue- She doesnt like my sexaul history-She has a problem with my previous encounters and how I have used sex as as a pastime and not Always something ( Read more... )

I am so falling asleep every time I blink my eyes- I dont know why we stayed up all night- I wonder how Marianna is doing with one hour of sleeop. I hope I can nap toady!!!!!!

I cant write now - I have to try and get a few hours of sleep before i work- Even thoughI am not tired- We spent all night Making up. It was beautiful... Details to come

I told her last night that I wanted to have a sober connversation which we werent and even in Chicago two days ago when she called me shady I told her that it was not the night to have this conversation and then what happens Last Night we ended up talking ourselves out of whatever we had ( Read more... )

Okay- So I cried last night but I wonder if I just thought like I had to - I moarned her loss I actually thought it when I was crying- I Called cuz it flet like the right thing to do.Its weird we werent together long only TWO WEEKS. WHat the fuck I feel like I lost. She broke up with me beacause she cant trust me- But really I guess I dont blame ( Read more... )