a couple days ago i read a book that said something like.............Cristina has the particular visions of an artist but never learned how to express herself artistically. This is sticking with me

it's cruel, really; the summer weather is trying its best to stick around.  but summer is gone.

Unpopular opinion: something about Lolita fashion gives me the creeps.

How do I keep from getting depressed and scared when I am daily reminded of how incredibly much I need to leave my living situation, for the good of my mental health?  And when I am daily reminded of how I am completely financially incapable of moving out, and will continue to be for the next couple years?  Next semester my tuition doubles.

Also, ( Read more... )

Eli, Eli

Shelo yigamer le'olam:
Hachol vehayam

Rishrush shel hamayim
Berak hashamayim

Tefilat ha'adam

REMEMBER:
MANN KANN, FRAU ERST RECHT SEEMS TO BE AVAILABLE ON VIMEO??????

I hated being a kid.  I wanted to be an adult, free of the helplessness of being young.  I have no nostalgia for my childhood, even though a lot of things about my childhood were as absurdly Pleasantville perfect as you can possibly get.  The combination of a crippling anxiety/trauma disorder, absurdly high intellect, weird interests, and coming ( Read more... )

I am so glad when I was a totally ridiculous 16 year-old girl I did not have condescending adults on the internet trying to protect me from my crushes.  It was a less ~careful~ time, even though it was only 10 years ago.  Concerned Adults really bother the piss out of me, and I've had this debate before with someone well-reasoned who was trying to ( Read more... )

I have so many friends-only entries; it just occured to me that why? I'm not in high school anymore, nor am I even close to being in high school, in that tight-knit IRL community where everyone was reading each other's livejournals and talking about them and even the teachers were reading ( Read more... )

a man ain't a goddamn ax a man ain't a goddamn ax a man ain't a goddamn ax

"Let me tell you something.  A man ain't a goddamn ax.  Chopping, hacking, busting every goddamn minute of the day. Things get to him.  Things he can't chop down because they're inside."

a man ain't a goddamn ax