Just got home from Grand Rapids where my best friend had her Grand Rapids Wedding Shower... It was fun. I was glad I could be there for her. I miss spending time with her all the time. I miss all the funny things we did, all the 7-11 runs, the target runs, the movie nights, the pizza & slurpee nights....talking about guys and all the stupid ( Read more... )

That guy might like me...Idk...I'm so fricken confused. I can't stand guys anymore. Yesterday I was talking to him, having a good convo and we started talking about movies...so I said "well, if you ever want to see a movie - just ask me...I probably have it and you can borrow it." and he's like "yeah, or I can give you a call sometime and we can ( Read more... )

Well - I haven't updated in forever...thanks to the glorious start of school...MY LAST SEMESTER!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! My substitution went through because I've consistently been a great student. Yay! So I am taking my last 2 classes of college and I will graduate with an Associate of Applied Science in Business Administrative Assistant. Wooohoo.. ( Read more... )

It's amazing the feelings that can develop from someone...even when they're not being themselves. Like with doofus...I really fell for him and he made me feel so good...but it wasn't him. It was this vision he created. That really ticks me off that someone would play with someone's emotions that way. I think more & more everyday that it was all ( Read more... )

So since I haven't updated in a long time, I guess I will ( Read more... )

So I realized on my way home from work today that the people I want closer to me, I push further away physically but hold them too close emotionally. When I like someone, I really feel for them...I really like them...and want to be with them. but when it all comes down to it, I freeze up around them, don't act like myself, and just kinda push ( Read more... )

This is the latest thought going through my mind...

You shouldn't like him, because you're putting him in a bad situation where someone like you likes him...and that's not a good situation to put someone in. It's not fair to him. So just back off...there's no hope anyway.

So everyone is pushing for this to happen....but I highly doubt it will. He's a great person. Any girl would be lucky to be with him. ....I just doubt that girl will be me.

So I think I like him....yep...I think I do. And it scares me cuz I HATE being hurt...and why is it I feel like that's the only way anything will end for me???

Yeah - so for some reason I just don't feel like I "fit" anywhere anymore...Like I don't fit with my family, my only friend is miles away, and I just can't understand why I am the way I am. I feel like sometimes I get feelings for people because there is an idea put into my head...so I think - well, maybe I should give this person a try - what if ( Read more... )