Why the fuck is everyone getting engaged??

i'm getting tired of living like i'm dying while the world is moving on.

I wish sometimes that someone would just tell me how to feel, think and act ( Read more... )

I hate drunk me more and more every day.

Which sucks.

I have some serious abandonment issues.

I wish I had something that I could say started it all.

Like my dad left my mom at a really awkward age.

But I was two.

So I think I'm just a bit crazy.

*shrugs*

The thought of sleep is terrifying enough to keep me awake.

I just don't want to deal with another nightmare.

All in all, not a great day :(

Where's a fucking hug when you need it?

I really hope I didn't fuck something up tonight.

I hate when someone I know get's engaged.

It's not that I'm bitter or anything. It's just that when I congratulate them they turn around and say...

"So how are you and Josh doing?"

And they don't really care.

If that isn't obvious.

Worrying about a friend all day ( Read more... )

Nightmares two nights in a row ( Read more... )

Alright well this is my first real entry in three years ( Read more... )

since i have touched this abomination. I went back and read all my old entries, and lord i was angsty.

So maybe this is me trying to turn over a new leaf. i know none of my friends really even have an lj anymore so it's pretty much my own private journal again.

we'll see