ahhhhhhhh!!!!! i'm so pissed!!!! quit being so fucking desperate....quit WAITING....quit being a loser!!!! i'm such a lame ass

quit lying to me....and promisng me....and hurting me...PLEASE!
or maybe i should quit getting my hopes up so much...
i'm stuck here waitng for you...

i'm all out of tears.

Last night I learned my dad had MS...multiple schorosis. Thats scary how one doctors appointment can fuck up someones enitre life. I feel so bad for my dad, i dont know, my family is super unlucky. No Grandparents, alcholics, MS, cancer....*sigh* life goes one. This just proves there is no god even more.

Last night i discovered how lucky I was. I feel as if i feel in love with daniel all over again. Shit,Daniel didnt reaize how big of a compliment he was getting last night. But yah i have daniel and no one else does!!!!! nananana ( Read more... )

i hate people....ADULTS ( Read more... )

..so i have this teacher...and it isnt doctor sholtz...but i do hate him too. but it is a different kind of hate, where we openly hate each other.....anyways today we were talking about casting in a play, and there was a charatcer of a witch, and tim says "you should cast rachel"...and this teacher says "lets not type cast"...and that was one of ( Read more... )

i hate her...i really do, i fucking hate her!!!! die you stupid bitch die! god dammit. Talking to me like i am mentally challenged...fucking dyke! today i was about to lunge across the fucking room and kick her ass....i really cant take this anymore....its the same always....ignore rachel...and if not torture rachel........i need a break from ( Read more... )

life is been so much fun lately....Maggie and I are beginning to hang out again...i missed that alot. Erin without a doubt is the one person who i can tell anything to. Alot of drama is going down with the kids from the hall....but its still fun non the less. My friends are just all so fucking amazing. The kids in the theater are with out a ( Read more... )

holy shit...barry shapiro wrote me back, and told me he was very interested in me still!!!....i am so happy. I love danile for this because I was not even going to write hime, thinking that he wuld have forgotten about me.....haha and the funny thing is is that he told grace and robert(my old mother agents who dropped me) and they told him to tell ( Read more... )

so i realy feel as if i am turning my life around. I quit smoking (for the most part) and i have been going to the gym everyday this week. Not to mention i have been at rehersal all week/auditions for two days...and the auditions payed off because i got a part in this play. It is a tiny part....i play a nurse of a girl dying of cancer....but it ( Read more... )