i wanted it to be me...i really did. i fooled myself into thinking it was, and now im confused and slightly hurt. hurt that i could let myself act this way. to give in, to let go. its only thoughts, but they have oh so much power. my dream last night should be a testiment to the fact...that i was ignoring the truth all along. now i can't figure out ( Read more... )

do you want to go? she asked me. i said yes, because its important. i dressed quickly and jumped in the car, looking slightly disheveled. within minutes she had changed my music...she tried to tell me i would like it. it was something completely depressing (barry manilow). i decided to let it go. all the way she talked "it" up. its soo close, its ( Read more... )

*i need to go running...my muscles are aching for it. the activity i used to hate has now become my escape. my head clears, my breathing steadys, and i go...go until i can't go anymore. its best at night when no one is around. i can look up and see nothing but an intricate web of stars. its peaceful. its cathardic. its time.

i take it back. things are definetly not changing for the better. even if they were the karma was ruined today when ( Read more... )

why do i do stupid things like drink two cups of caffinated coffee at five o'clock at night. ??
stupidly yours,
-p

you know when change is occuring, and you can just feel it. no specific turn of events has changed anything. the difference is so slight, its more internal...or maybe external. i can feel the tide changing, but i can't quite pinpoint exactly what direction the waves will roll in. although...i like it. this new feeling. i have recently become very ( Read more... )

literally ( Read more... )

to you. you who has invaded my mind without my consent. the one who spawns thought and evokes anxiety. the one who doesn't know this because i am too cowardly to say. the one who will probably never know, for that same reason.
this is a constant cycle for me....somethings got to give.
-p

    i am familiar with awkward. i can't explain why...but i have always felt a sense of detachment when it comes to people at school. sure, there will always be the select few with whom i can relate, but mostly...i don't. i wish i could be as carefree as some of those i see, but i have overactive brain cells. the result is someone who looks at the ( Read more... )

Do opposites attract?
-is this the best combination....people of opposite minds?
-are those with similar minds doomed...because they are too alike,
or are they compatible because they share so many interests?

*i was thinking about this....all stereotypes aside.

-p