why can't i cry when i want to ( Read more... )

caffine seems to be the my only friend. the drug that infects my blood and streamlines energy through my veins. i'm always awake, but never alive.

I saw you today. i glanced in your direction and you didn't see me. i was glad, because you make me melt...the caffine wears off and i'm numb no longer. it would be easier to forget you.

i stand before you naked,
bereft of cloak and cover,
heart on skin with
vulnerability seeping from my joints
and beating my heart faster
with every glance of your eye,
here i stand waiting:
for arms to hold my hips
and wrap to the small of my back,
cell on cell,
I stand before you naked,
wanting you to see,
to see me,
all of me.

it was time to go to the airport. she'd be coming in at 12:00. we got into the car, and he turned the music up so loud, i could feel the bass vibrating my bones. we drove. it was so nice to sit and say nothing. we weren't talking, we weren't arguing. it was the old jordan...the one i love/hate. it was so nice to listen. he turned to me and smiled ( Read more... )

i have reached a low point. i cant stand to talk to my brother any longer because of his hypocritic inclinations. listening to jordan speak is painful. HE...has no right to create a double standard for himself. plus, he just sounds like a moron. nothing sets him a part from anyone else. jordan has always believed that he is above the Barrington ( Read more... )

**a correction to the masses......

_my prior user picture was not Jesus...it was Cat Stevens. he sings one of my all time favorite songs "Wild World"

thanks

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it feels like forever now, that i have been playing this game. its so obvious to me. i wish it were obvious to them. I am going crazy because they don't realize how much i care...that's why i always ask...in case you were wondering.

in hopes that eyes will finally open,
~p

*uggh....why is being alone so lonely.