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i just want to not think about the things that are weighing me down and putting me in distress. It's such a big part of my existence right now but i really just want to forget about all and possible move silently past it. So difficult and nearly impossible when we live together and even though i am mostly ignored and avoided (which i guess IS the ( Read more... ) -
The difference between keeping and confusing
time and time again I try to make clear the limit of my worldly knowledge and how I admire those that posses it in magnitude. But as time goes on I realize that it is a rarity to encounter a knowledgeable individual without bias. To any degree. It is to the credit of these individuals, groups of individuals and so on that there are mysteries in the ( Read more... ) -
CFL
fail
I suck. -
spit it out already!!!
On an instinctive and automatic level I tend to try to blame one for anything worth blaming something on. A general behavior pattern among humans. I do however after some serious thought and some minor growing up try very consciously to keep my mind clear and accept things for what they really truly are. Ignore the convoluted bullshit, bypass the ( Read more... ) -
Videogame idea!!
So there's this old NES game called Rampart. It had a pretty basic but fun concept of siege combat that went down in two phases; first the player starts off with an incomplete or damaged castle and is tasked with repairing and fortifying the walls with a time limit. the next phase has the fortifications tested by enemy attack and the player ( Read more... ) -
MINIGUN!!!!
I liken my relations with livejournal to the Minigun; I spool up the barrels and unleash a devastating (annoying and pointless) barrage of bullets (entries) and when i run out (2-3 days later) I drop the weapon and let it cool off (30-50 weeks) until it's safe to handle (have something 'clever' to say) then I reload (go through the process of ( Read more... ) -
So hard and in vain
I want very badly to be someplace else. I have this place in my head and it's not even that far away. Down the road a bit then across the bridge. I want to surround myself with the fascinating and unfamiliar. i want it to stay unfamiliar. Just so it can be fresh and new forever. So that every time I wake up there is that scent of wonder and that ( Read more... ) -
cannot comply. achievement through the unright.
A heathcliff has he ( Read more... ) -
walls and back doors
ever feel like your putting in more than you getting out? i guess it's the laws of efficiency; can't ever get back 100% of what you put in. but shit, not even 10%? maybe my knowledge of physics is direly dated but i still think something stinks ( Read more... )