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[pradamafia]

The sad thing is, I really have no idea who I am, what I want to be. I write these long posts about what I want, what I desire in life but really, I am so caught in limbo that it’s not even funny. I’m a walking contradiction: the girl who remembers what her teacher was wearing the last day before spring break in second grade, but forgets to empty

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Wow..

[anonymous]

You never cease to amaze me, Jade.

Everything you just said is exactly how I feel, but I didn't know how to say it. I envy your phenomenal writing talent. It's beautiful, yet heartbreaking. Heartbreakingly beautiful.

The other day my friend was wearing some Manolo Blahniks with scuffs on the heels, and for some reason, it made me think of you even though we had not talked in the longest time.

Take care, doll. xoxo - Madeline

Re: Wow..

[pradamafia]

Maddy,
I want to start by saying how completely grateful I am to have you. You have helped me so much with my writing and body image and all of those things. And you are a beautiful writer, and if you hadn't stopped, you could be Hemingway or something.

Recently, in a Friends Only post, I used your name. Repeated something you said about EDs.

We really need to keep in better contact.

xx.

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[anonymous]

Aww, thank you so much, Jade. We do need to keep in better contact. That's for sure. And I haven't stopped writing. Actually, I've been writing more now than I have in a long while. I've just stopped posting it. But since you're special, I'll let you read it. :-)

xoxo - Maddy

[assassina_bella]

This went to my memories. Description? "Jade yet again describes me."

[pradamafia]

Ohhh Eva--I'm so glad that I'm not the only one who feels this way.

xx.

[linds1085]

wow, jade, please do not think you are the only one who struggles. i think sometimes being a deep thinker is a blessing and a curse...you enjoy writing, you enjoy creating beautiful things, you enjoy thinking things through and making them your own and "wondering" and dreaming. That's your job for now though...don't stress...you are going to be a sophomore in high school and you'll keep wondering and you'll feel like you need to get serious about your future when you go off to college and you won't at first and you'll have a lot more posts like these...but there's a little of this in everyone...definitely a lot in me. So de-stress my dear...you've got some time to think and dream and rest in the fact that there is merit and worth in that alone.

[pradamafia]

Lindsey, you are always dead on.

xx.

[linds1085]

:) i got yo back babe

[bellafiore1117]

And I want love. I ache for love. I want someone who loves me dearly and 2.5 kids and a house in Greenwich and the whole shebang. I want a big happy family and an airy kitchen and beautiful, intelligent children who cling to their mother’s leg. I want beauty. I want a face so pretty that it makes people sigh and wrists so fragile that people stare.

that is beautiful. i want the same. you are really going to go places Jade.. whenever I read your journal I feel like you have got to be older than you are. You are truly special.

[pradamafia]

That has got be one of the best compliments I've ever received. Thank you so much, wow

xx.

[___alw]

The last comment is so true. I've only been reading your entries for a little while, but you are so wise. You seem like the kind of person who is just destined for great things, and I'm sure you'll get them - and even more.

<3

[pradamafia]

Thank you so much--this comment sounds so insincere but it's not. Thank you soooooo much!

xx.