Well Its a done deal. My daughter will be going to another school, I have the daycare set up, and Alpha has graciously offered to help me out. Needless to say I will have to spend alot of time there, by the time I finish at 8 and get there he will have Amy fed, homeworked and snuggled in. It almost doesnt make sense to keep 2 places. We will ( Read more... )

Well lots and lots going on, I dont know if I have the brainspace to process it all. Ive got someone in my life who needs my help, ive been trying I really have, but now its looking like a move home is inevitible. My shifts for my company came out, beginning Sept 6 I work 12-8, well that leaves me with a 9 yr old daughter and nobody afterschool ( Read more... )

I`ve hurt my back doing nothing more then being in bed. It was frightening being unable to move in the middle of the night, I actually had to have assistance getting rolled into a back stretching fetal position, when I got up in the Am I was still sore and tender with pain shooting down the back of my legs. I went and saw a doc and of course the ( Read more... )

Well it was a fabulous weekend. I helped Alpha do some unpacking, we had company over for dinner Thursday evening, went for lunch on Friday afternoon as usual. Saturady I was at my own place, and Sunday I took some laundry over to do as I am soooooooooooo short on cash but only until Wednesday Thank the creator!!!. At Alphas, I did dishes and ( Read more... )

Ok well Im a loser, I dont know what caused that rant, possibly an accumulation of stresses? My father was kind enough to pick up my medicine for me and I can pay him back when I get paid. My phone still may go off, I wont have any money really until the 20 and 21 and even then I have rent coming again and daycare at $80 a week 3 weeks to be paid ( Read more... )

Today isnt such a good day, it just gets worse the longer i have to go without my medication, its been 2 weeks, my money is stretched to the limit, Im trying to pay for daycare, my cellphone daytime minutes are being exceeded by at least 250 at 25 cents a minute and I work 8-5 so I cant use it, plus long distance charges. Anyonw who wants to ( Read more... )

Today is the day Alpha moves into the townhouse 6 years ago I lived in with my childen. It has been bittwesweet, no bad memories just memories of happy times my daughters scribblings are still in the basement (on the wall) Alot of work has been done and it is very very nice I am looking forward to cleaning and doing the cooking on Fridays for ( Read more... )

I feel all warm and fuzzy, Love and care can take the darkest mood and reset the mindspirit.

My heart is breaking, smashed into a million little pieces. Every once in a while I am a real idiot, I fall for it, and I get very very hurt. I have 2 other children who are older, 10 and 13. My ex, was a malicious asshole, as much as I took the highroad, he took the ditch. He systematically pressued and eventually brainwashed my children ( Read more... )

I seem to be PMSing again, I went to wear a skirt today and it was snug....holy crap snug, after 2 months of semi diet and consistent exercise OMG maybe I need amphetamines. How can this be? I can do a decent workout have strength and stamina yet my form isnt changing...what the hell fit but fat? Grrrrr GHeeze I could go back to the beer and the ( Read more... )