All I do is act on my passions and they call it sin. All I do is tell the truth and they call me a hypocrite. All feel is pain and sorrow and they call it love. All I do is pour my heart out to empty pages and they call it poetry.

To: Leay Abanes Subject: Re ( Read more... )

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This is my 2nd day post break up. And day by day I know its going to get harder. I never thought I'd see the day he'd turn his back on me. When "we" turns into "me". Separation is not an easy road. Especially when you've invested all of your emotions and time and most importantly your heart. I can honestly say with no shred of guilt I have never ( Read more... )

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I recently went through everything I own and found a bunch of left over juan. Things he used to say scribbled on paper. His drawings, pictures. Things we had done. And I collapsed inside. I can't help but wonder how things could be. How it would be right now, today. If he was still around. This doesn't get easier. I learned that the hard way. It ( Read more... )

"My first best friend, the girl with the long dark hair, walked away from me when I was 12 and again when I was on the verge of 20. No relationship had been through the same amount of brutality and lies and deceit and shit talking and middle finger waving as ours had. She was a beautiful person with loose lips that sunk us. I still don't know if it ( Read more... )

I know my policy of not looking back. But lately it has been so hard not to. I look him in the face and the alcohol has ruined him. Its gotten to the point where I don't know how much more I can take. Its got him like I want him. And on countless occasions he has chosen it over me. I'm not talking a few drinks to make your head spin a little. I'm ( Read more... )

I am a huge void of negativity. I am needy and controlling. I cry when I'm mad and I cry when I get my feelings injured. Verbal abuse is something that I've shared a home with for many years. Verbal is the worst because no matter how many times you've been called something or told something all it takes is one new person to say it to you and its ( Read more... )

i want to start a book. i want to write. i want to be with art all the time. i know it sounds insane. but he is the only person that i do not get sick of. he makes me feel ok. like noone else. people say alot of things about me and people say alot about me and arthur. i dont care. im stressed and i dont know what i want when it comes to a career, ( Read more... )