He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
       will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]
 I will say [b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
       my God, in whom I trust."

Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
       and from the deadly pestilence.

He will cover you with his feathers,
       and under his wings you ( Read more... )

life takes me in so many different directions. 
there are the memories that i will try and never forget. 
the small things. 
getting out of the shower and scampering to my bedroom where four of my good friends are all sitting, talking and laughing. 
i was supposed to go to the movies with best guy friend and his friend, but ended up going to a big ( Read more... )

a day. 
i am in a better place today. 
life has taken me in so many directions lately, it's been hard to keep up with it all
but i have the feeling life is going to be a little bit better in the future. 
I got so many things accomplished today. 
i called my mother and said, 'mom, i know i've called you a lot lately with a broken heart, a frustrated mind ( Read more... )

my heart is broken
and you haven't even dropped it yet
and it's days like these i sit and wonder
why i waste my time
stupid girl.

i was so happy today. 
i have so many friends. 
who love me. 
so why. 
sitting on my bed. 
letting these tears fall. 
mommy. 
where did you go?
who are you now?
i miss you. 
shh... don't tell daddy.

sometimes
at funerals
i sing
so ( Read more... )

a moment of peace.
i got cut.
but i'm glad because i have a friend coming up for the night.
i wrote my statement today.
some days i think i'm schizophrenic.
i bounce between intoxicated bliss and dispirited gloom.
i'm sitting with you eating dinner.
i'm attentive to what you're saying.
'you know, you're one of those striking people that one would ( Read more... )

I really just don't think I'm cut out for this some days. 
I knew all of them.
I knew them. 
I thought I would do okay. 
Maybe not perfect, but okay. 
Ahhhh... I'm trying not to cry here in this fucking computer lab. 
Maybe if I keep looking up. 
I fucked myself over. 
fuck it. 
I can't not cry. 

Today I'm just trying to keep up with life. 
And it's a good day. 
Busy is good. 
Not lazy. 
But I feel.... I don't know how I feel. 
I got up at seven to go to the gym... which was hard seeing as I am an insomniac and was up past 2am.. 
I couldn't sleep. 
showered there. 
Went to microbiology at 10:30. 
I was so happy that I actually went to the gym ( Read more... )

I need a plan. I need to make some goals. 
I can's just keep going the way I'm going and expect better results next time. 
Obviously this isn't working. 
I am a procrastinator. I have always been. 
I have written about it so many times in so many journals and I still have a problem. 
I am almost 21 years old. 
It's about fucking time to cut it. 
To ( Read more... )

Today I am fighting self doubt. 
Got up early. Drove to the Portland campus to study before my microbiology lecture exam. 
Took it. 
It was horrible. 
So many of the questions I would remember looking at Bordetella Pertussis  and all of its strains and then not remember that DPT was the cellular vaccination used... or that Spirochaetes are ubiquitous, ( Read more... )

My moods are so all over the place. 
I didn't go to class this morning. 
It's a statistics class I'm retaking. 
I got a C. I needed a C+ for the nursing program. 
Bah.
It's so frustrating sitting through 3 1/2 hour classes listing to something you already know. 
So I've let myself fall behind. 
Good job. 
I woke up this morning, thankful that it ( Read more... )