So I've been stuck in this place for some time now. I recently embarked on the whole drug escapade, and Its going on a good sober year ago now. Takes time still i suppose. I still look down upon myself for those mistakes and will never forget the people i hurt In that process. It eats at me some days and I wish I could feel pure once again. I feel ( Read more... )

So most recently i've dealt with a lot. Between new friends, to the missing emotion of others. From drugs to parties to childhood antics. My life is nothing short of a novel. Yet through ruff and tuff, to thin and sin i feel distant again. Im growing and we all go through that weird personal descovery around this age, its much more than that though ( Read more... )

I've been having a lot of highs and lows lately and I'm really un-sure why. I look at myself with the highest expectations,when i don't feel that I'm doing anything i crash. I'm afraid of a crash approaching real quick and hard and i don't want to let it happen ( Read more... )

Life's just around the corner. Another mark upon which conflicts whom I'll become. A page that will impact how a new journey will begin. I look forward to this day and with hope in that my mind has created a well enough and stable sturcture for an amazing adventure. I'm pretty sure I can take on this excitment. Yet I fear temptation will take over ( Read more... )

Pay attention, listen,watch, and don't get trapped ( Read more... )

So i've done it. I've moved away from home, from my friends, from the life that i knew and felt was so terrible, the people i found myself slowly pushing myself away from. Yet i want to go back so fucking badly. I know this is by far the best thing for me and will make me a much stronger individual than others for the age of 17; but just that. The ( Read more... )

I love being treated like im 5 ( Read more... )

So most recently I plan on moving to cali. I have the chance and im not going to let this bypass me what so ever ( Read more... )

I find myself resorting to lj when im down or i have some sort of logical issue in which i can't voice. Why this is i have yet to know ( Read more... )

Today im faced with an issue. A typical high school issue i'd thought I had over come and grown past. Yet today is different. Somethings new and very random ( Read more... )