recently been working twelve hour days ( Read more... )

.coventry
.circle of filth
.the man is a legend
.proplus
.playing honk-honk games with john
."i think i've made that clear"
.six hours sleep in three days
.grass stains & piggy backs
.returning to the words "youre good"
.there are some positive aspects to the ridiculous demands of the programme i'm on

sometimes he reads things i've written to him, word for word, out on the radio. days or weeks after they were sent, pretending the thoughts were his.

there are so so many forms of existence.

today, as the nurse rushed my prescription through and i should have been at work, i thought, at least i have my health.

today, in the space of thirty minutes i got hit on by four men ( Read more... )

today! i met with matt, we talked a lot of shit about gender and politics and sexuality and sex and gender politics and everything in between, after stupid years apart i think we get each other again. <3 <3 really, to matthew, because i don't know anyone as mature, or as honest, as he is in his outlook. we drank warm beer and took buses all over ( Read more... )

the oc, tom hanks' hair the the da vinci code, hanging pictures, hot men myspacing me, a four-day week, sending postcards to hannah, does it get any better?

herbal cigarettes, 14 days without alcohol, i come home and want to fall asleep forever, j in cardiff, static static, ask me how i am, **** ***** ** ***, your hair on my pillow your smell on my sheets, i am no good at the thing i do the most, knowing i am secretly an "operative" at heart, but probably quite a good one, several green wings a night, ( Read more... )

a crowded train to the coast, i didn't realise he would be so straight-edge, pay day, "died and since was buried". i fell asleep on the tube and ended up in essex. i was still at work by 8:10. i miss this city more than i thought i would ( Read more... )

this weekend,

i spent time with david, did not try hard enough to stop an indie crackheads kisses, got sick & made new vows. i privated all the entries i had time to, i am changing i promise you.

i think this helped things, i think you helped things.